Healing Love

Chapter 16 (M)

Jin Ah POV

Every mother would wish that their child will be normal and healthy, but not everyone is entitled. When I learned that my son has Down Syndrome, I feel like the sky collapsed once again. I am afraid of what kind of childhood will he be facing and how is the world will look at him. I am worried that he will have a tough life. There are so many things that I am concerned about him. I am afraid I am not the perfect mother for him. I have no experience in motherhood as this is my first child, and can a novice mother like me raise this special child? Too many questions but too few answers.

Luckily, I am surrounded by beautiful souls who keeps reminding me that nothing should I be afraid of being a mother to a child with special needs. However, I still remembered what Mi Kyung ahjumma told me when we broke the news regarding Sunshine.

"You are fortunate. When there are many women out there who longed for a child but still not be able to get one, you are given not only a child but an extraordinary gift. The only special woman got to bear a special child because God knows that she can love the child more than anyone else could. Never once think your child is a burden or neither is your fault," her words makes me realized that nothing is wrong with having a special child. Also, nothing really can change my love for my baby, even after knowing he is a DS baby.

My husband is a great support system to me. Jung Hyuk oppa has been very positive about Sunshine's condition. I never see him looks regretful or frustrated after learning the truth. On the contrary, he keeps assuring me that he will love Sunshine no matter what. I believe that my decision to make Sunshine his son is right all along. They say everyone can father a child, but not everyone can be a good father to the child, and I believe in that. Sunshine is not his, but Jung Hyuk oppa loves him unconditionally. I am beyond thankful that God sent him to help me.

Because of them, I find a new meaning in life. I see more reasons for me to become a better person to raise my child and make sure he can be as great as normal children. I wanted to turn a new leaf into my life. I just want to focus on what I have now and pour my utmost love into the little boy who had captured my heart. My son. My Sunshine.

As I was so into my thoughts, my phone rings and I smile, seeing the caller ID of the person giving me a Facetime.

"Jin Ah ya!!!!!" she screamed on the other line excitedly.

"Ya Gong Hyo Jin, what makes you so excited?" I asked.

Hyo Jin continues laughing in excitement, and she raised her right hand and showed me the ring on her finger. Then, she wiggles her fourth finger as she flaunted the diamond ring. I closed my mouth with my right hand in shocked.

"Oh My God, CONGRATULATIONS!!!!" Now, it is my turn to scream for her. Hyo Jin is now engaged, Jung Suk oppa finally proposed to her. "When did it happened?" I am so curious to know.

"This morning, he took me for a date at Hongdae, and while I was enjoying this busking performance, he went down on one knee. Little that I know, he paid the buskers to keep me entertained while he plans to propose. I wish you were there to witness this moment, chinguya."

"Awwww, Jung Suk oppa is romantic. You are lucky, chingu," I told her.

I feel so happy for my best friend. Finally, the day she has been waiting for happened. Jung Suk oppa is the most patient man I know. He can handle Hyo Jin's craziness and never once complained about her.

"And.... I have another news for you, Jin Ah ya," Hyo Jin voice shrieking again.

"What news??? Are you joining me into the Mama's Club?" I am the one getting excited if this is true. When we were young, Hyo Jin and I always imagine it would be nice if we got married and pregnant around the same time so our children can go to the same school.