Somewhere Along the Way... (Loki x Reader)

Nothin Like A Days Work...

After telling Mum everything that happened we sat in silence for a brief moment before she spoke. I took a long sip of my tea, sighing into my mug, it was almost cold but I didn't even care.

"Lovebug. I always told your Dad you were a special one. I didn't know how but I could just feel it in my bones when we seen you that day, abandoned outside the hospital. I told him, you were meant for great things. Now look at the beautiful kind hearted, talented woman you have grown into. Working for the Avengers, still keeping up your career with the horses, not to mention that voice that you don't seem to want to share with the world anymore? To me you have always been gifted baby and I will always see you as my little girl. However. The decisions you have to make now are up to you. I can't decide for you this time. I can only give you some motherly advice lovebug," She paused taking a sip of her tea, "Now this...Loki?" She pondered on his name for a minute, "Do you think, possibly you might love him?"

I had never said it out loud to anyone, but I did. I knew in my heart I really did. I was just scared to admit it, even to myself.

"I love them all Mum." I smiled at her, trying to avoid answering the question.

"I didn't ask about them all though, did I young lady? I asked about him." She raised her eyebrows at me, pulling a face warning me she knew exactly what I was up to.

"It's not just this whole soulmate thing Mum. People will think that just because this mark appeared on our arms, that's it they will be together. I think. Actually no, I know it's deeper than that. Is it possible that when I'm with him, around him, I just. I don't know...I just feel like I'm home? Like I belong? I don't mean when we are with the Avengers, but I mean the nights we spent discovering my magic, huddled together in our rooms. Reading, laughing, just genuinely enjoying each other's company. When we are out around the horses together, I'm at ease with him, he just...I don't know. I can't help but feel myself stealing glances at him when I'm with the others, and normally when I do he's watching me. It just. It feels like it's meant to be. He's a different person around me. He's...happy. And I'm not sure how long it's been since he has felt that way." I flushed realising how long I had just been talking, "Am I crazy?" I smiled at her.

"It is very possible Darlin, crazy in love perhaps?" She chuckled, "Home isn't just where you are from lovebug. No, it's where you feel you belong. Some people travel the world to find it, others are lucky enough to find it in certain people."

"Well he feels like home, and everywhere I've never been, all at once." I smiled down at my cup wrapping my two hands around it. "So yeah, I guess I kinda do love him don't I?"

She nodded her head at me, "Well then Darlin, all that's left to ask yourself is, do you love him enough to forgive him for fleeing? He says he was doin somethin to protect you. Maybe he did have you in his best interests, but not talkin it out with him isn't gonna solve anythin now is it lovebug?"

"No Mum. It won't." I knew she was right. "I'm just not sure I have the courage to do it, in case I'm totally wrong."

"Love, it's complicated lovebug, it's not about havin the perfect relationship. No one does. No matter what they try and tell you. Me and your Dad didn't see eye to eye all the time, hell there were days I could have taken a frying pan and hit him round that thick skull of his." She began to laugh before continuing, "It's about findin that someone who matches you. Someone who will go through everythin in their path without givin up on you. Despite how hard it gets. It doesn't mean you will always see eye to eye, or always agree on things. You will argue, you will fight, it means lovebug despite all the bad days you can't see yourself livin life without that person. So ask yourself lovebug. Can you live without him?"

I sat on the chair, trying to picture life without him in it. The time he had been gone had been hard enough. Could I go forever without him?

"I don't think I ever want to be in the position to find out the answer to that Mum...I mean he's like nobody else in the world I've met. When it's just the two of us, it's like I split into two halves. One part of me is on fire, I feel like going crazy not being able to touch him or kiss those perfect lips. Then the other half of me. It's just calm and peaceful. Perfectly content being around him. It's as if that half of me knows he is the one for me...I have fell in love with his soul, before I've even been given the chance to touch his skin." Tears were falling down my face again. Ones of joy this time though.