Somewhere Along the Way... (Loki x Reader)

Heart Break...

We sat on the sofas, waiting on Thor's return. I was fidgeting with my hands, my body was all over the place with emotions. Fear, impatience, excitement, dread, hurt, I couldn't settle. I tried, but my leg began bouncing up and down the harder I tried to compose myself.

Bucky pulled me into him, "Come on Doll your stronger than this."

I nodded at him biting my lip.

Darling? Please don't be angry with me. I'm here now.

I involuntarily threw myself off the sofa with shock. The sensation of him in my head again had me faltering slightly, next thing I knew, I tripped over my own feet, hitting my head off the coffee table in the process of falling to the ground.

As quickly as I hit the floor, I jumped back up wiping my forehead checking for blood.

"Hey! Hey! Are you ok?!" Steve had jumped up off his seat and wrapped his arms around me as I bounced up from hitting my head holding me securely. He searched my face concerned. "Easy now, you could have a concussion."

My eyes where wide with fear as I answered him. "Loki. He said he's here."

They all looked at each other confused.

"How would he have told you that?" Nat was brave enough to quizz me.

"Ohhhh...Yeah you guys don't know. We can kind of talk to each other in our heads." I played with the hem of my T-shirt as I told them.

"Hell! Now that's some weird ass shit!" Sam exclaimed.

"SAM!" Nat punched his arm, giving him a look.

"What? Your all thinking it! I'm just saying it!" He rubbed his arm grumbling in pain.

I made a dash from Steve's arms towards the elevator just as I was about to press the button the doors opened and there he was standing behind Thor. Looking at the floor, his bottom lip caught in his mouth.

I wobbled back a few steps before my body froze as I really glued my eyes on him. Thor stepped out and stood beside me running his hand along my back, "You ok Little One?"
I pulled my eyes away from Loki to Thor nodding at him before going back to staring at Loki.

"Loki? Is it really you?" I whispered.

He looked up, a smile spreading across his damn perfect pale face, taking a step towards me opening his arms, "Yes Darling. I'm here.... I'm sorry I disappeared like that but I had to do something. For you."

He took another step towards me but I retreated away from him. Lowering my gaze from his, staring at a spot on the floor. I felt my temper flare, fast. The small smile that had been on his face disappeared.

"You promised me you wouldn't leave. Not unless I asked you too." I didn't dare look at him. Balling my hands into fists as tears began dripping down my face. I couldn't hold them back any longer. My voice began to falter.

"You found out that...that I...I...I was your soulmate and YOU disappeared without ANY KIND OF TRACE! DO YOU KNOW HOW WORRIED I WAS? WORRIED ABOUT YOU AND YOUR SAFETY! HOW HURT I WAS?! YOU BASICALLY REJECTED ME AFTER EVERYTHING?!"

I lost it and closed the space between us, slapping him across the face as hard as I could.

Staring him straight in the eyes, I felt no remorse as I watched the red mark flare up on his pale skin where my hand had just been.

His hand moved to his face. He looked at me bewildered. Clearly this wasn't the welcome home he expected.

"Come here Doll, it's ok." Bucky's hand made it's way to my shoulder gently pulling me back to him.

I fell into him, burying my face in his chest wrapping my arms around his waist. My sobs ripping at my chest. I swear in that moment I had heard my heart break. Loki watched me turn to Bucky for comfort, turning my back to him.

"Pet. Please. Let me explain....Please. Please don't hate me..." his voice trailed off to a whisper, "I needed to protect you."

"Brother." Thor growled, "I think you need to give her time to process this."

"But she needs to know why I left, why I went away. I DIDN'T ABANDON HER! I WAS TRYING TO PROTECT HER!" His voice was laced with anger as he watched Bucky hold me. Jealousy taking over.

Bucky pushed his shoulder into Loki knocking him back slightly as he walked me past him to the elevator, "Not cool Loki, not cool at all. She's been a mess. You could have just fucking told her before you left like any normal person would have done, she would have understood then at least."

Once upstairs, Bucky pulled me into his chest in his bed, wrapping his arms around me kissing my forehead as I cried into him.

I was so happy to see him, my God I had missed him, but seeing him made my heart hurt. The feeling of being rejected rushing over me again. What did he mean he had to? To protect me? What from? Who from? What was he doing when he was away? Who had he been with?

Pet please, don't shut me out like this....you have to hear me out!

No! You do NOT get to make decisions like that right now. I don't have to do anything for you right now!

Pet....before he could finish I shut him out.

"I'm sorry Bucky," I sighed.

"You have nothing to be sorry about. I'm here for you Doll, I told you before. I'm wrapped around your little finger." He smirked at me holding up his pinky.

I laced mine around his and smiled, "I swear I could have filled a lake at this point the amount of bloody crying I have done recently!"

"That I agree with, I'm surprised you haven't flooded the entire building at this point!" We both laughed at that.

"You mind if I stay here tonight?" I asked sheepishly.

"Course not. We couldn't have you creeping into his room and trying to smother him or something out of revenge now can we?" He raised his eyebrows at me smirking.

I slapped his chest, "Fuck off, I'm not that bad!" I laughed.