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Chapter 134

February 4th

Asher's POV

"Dad" I grumble coming out of the bathroom my hair still wet. He rushes over and checks my forehead. "Are you okay?" He asks and I nod, hugging him. "Can I go see Atlas?" I let out a breath.

"Well, aren't you tired? We can't have you getting sick, plus your papa is going to be back from work soon" he explains and I look up to him. "Please, papa and you can have alone time! I won't bug you" I whisper and he seems to think about it for a minute.

"Okay Bubba let's go" he chuckles taking my hand. I smile as we make our way down the stairs. It didn't take long because the rest of the house was either in their rooms or in the kitchen finishing dinner.

Dad knocks on his door and I blush. I should probably do that. I use to just walk in. That's sort of annoying, on my part. There's a bit of shuffling and the door opens. He's exhausted. I can tell.

"Goodnight dad" I smile sadly and he nods kissing my head. "Goodnight, if you need anything you know where I am" he seems reluctant to leave me. Letting his hand slip from my shoulder as he left.

Dad closes the door lightly and I immediately walk over to the curtains closing them. He just stares at me the whole time. "I'm sorry" I whisper and hurry over to him.

"It's okay, whatever makes you feel better" he smiles giving me his hand. I put my palm against his measuring how big it was compared to mine.  "You should go to sleep" I smile up to him and he seems to freeze staring at our hands pressed against each other.

"Angel, I'm not tired, but if you're tired we can lay down" he chuckles and I pout intertwining our fingers. "Atlas! I know you're tired" I whisper looking up at him with narrow eyes.

He huffs and does the unexpected picking me up. "Atlas... please" I pout resting my head on his shoulder. "Sure, lay down with me" he whispers and I almost give in.

"No" I slide down from his grip and he stops giving me a curious look. "Come with me" I smile pulling him by his hand. He jokingly complains. "baby stoppp" my boyfriend continues and I do. Throwing open his closet door I pull him back in.

"And why am I being dragged into my closet?" He asked as I look around for clothes. "You need to be comfy it will help you sleep easier" I explain, throwing him some joggers.

I get an eye roll but ignored it. "Do you want me to find you a shirt or will you just take it off?" I would like a certain answer more than the other. "I'll be good without one" he shrugs slipping his pants off.

I turn the other way getting a chuckle. "Somebody is still shy" he mumbles and I listen to him pull his shirt off and his joggers on. "It's just the polite thing to do" I sigh remembering certain things I didn't want to remember of my time 'working'.

His arms wrap around me and I lay my head back against his chest. Looking up my face dropped when I saw the tears in his eyes. I slip around in his grip and grabbed his cheeks. "Did I do something? What's wrong?" I asked, causing him to wipe his eyes before putting his hand back on my waist.

"I thought I lost you and now that I have you back... I feel like things shouldn't be normal but I want them to be, is it too soon to act like things are normal" he whispers his eyes looking over my face in a panic.

"I just want you to act like you normally do, I know we can't pretend nothing happened, but I don't want to dwell on it either. It could have been so much worse for me, if anything I'm lucky" I try to express, but he quickly stops pulling back from me.

"Lucky! Ash are you kidding me! You're whole life you've been touched and stepped on, I told you I would take care of you and then I lose you just as fast, promise broken" he shouts throwing his arms up.

I step back with a flinch, his tone scaring me a bit, I understood where he was coming from and I was angry too, life was unfair especially to me it seems. "I'm such a bad person, breaking promises left and right" he scoffs.

I used my thumbs to wipe his tears as best as I could. I hated making him so upset. "You're not a bad person, you're an amazing person- we're going to make things right" I try to reassure him.

"Happy?" The only word he says, putting a hand over mine. "Happy, both of us" I tear up, and he drops my hand. I went onto my toes giving him a small kiss. "We're going to be happy, I'm happy" I repeat and just those words put a small smile on his face.

"Can we go lay down?" I pried running my hand up and down his arm. He looks to his arm and sighs. "It feels weird, you being the one to reassure me" he chuckles. I laugh squeezing his arm "I've decided to step up as a boyfriend" I reply.

He gives me a sad look but pulls me towards the bed. "Are you tired?" He questions me. I hop onto the bed nodding "exhausted" I was telling the truth, but I wasn't going to sleep until he did.

Running a hand through my hair, I pout knowing it's still wet and I'm not going to be able to cuddle with him. "Angel why didn't you say something" he groans joining me.

Okay, how to make Atlas sleepy. Well, he's already exhausted soooo. "I love you" I murmur leaning forward to kiss him again. He smiles pulling me closer to him. "I love you so much" he answers before continuing the kiss.

Distract him, check. I pull back with one last small peck.  "Hi" I giggle running my hands over his shoulders. He gives me a groggy smile. "Hello" Atlas yawned into his hands.

I smiled hugging him with my arms over his shoulders. Leaving small kisses on his cheeks and face. "I missed you" I literally had no idea what I was saying but I was attempting to relax him.

"I... missed you... too" he hums letting his head drop back. Moving my hands back to his shoulder I kissed his neck a few times before getting myself comfortable and pulling the sleepy boy down, so his head was in my lap.

His eyes were closed and he turned to snuggle close to me. I leaned over and grabbed a blanket pulling it up to his shoulder. "You should... go to bed" he mumbles as I run my hands through his hair massaging his scalp.

"Yup I'm going to bed right now" I whisper watching his eyelids flutter. I continued to stare at him. He's so perfect. "I love you" I whisper tugging lightly at his hair.

I get a groan in response and he shifts moving his hand to my thigh. I smile and grabbed a pillow putting it behind my back before resting my head on his headboard.

If I move too much he'll wake up and then he'll realize what I did and won't go back to sleep. So I will not sleep until I know he's getting enough sleep.

I'm going to stay strong! I got this... no sleep for me. "Sleep is for the weak" I muttered trying to hype myself up. It didn't work well. I'm exhausted.

I closed my eyes trying to blink the sleep away. I'm so tired, it's so uncomfortable sleeping like this. I went back to playing with Atlas's hair and he smiled in his sleep.

He's so peaceful. I love him so much. I honestly feel happy with myself knowing I did something to help him. For once I wasn't being taken care of. I did something! Me!

I got too hyper and started bouncing which caused Atlas to shift again. I froze and watched him lovingly. He let his eyes open and gave me an exhausted smile.

"Kissy" he croaks out pursing his lips. I smile rubbing his temple. Leaning down I give him a quick kiss. "Night night" I coo and he smiles before immediately falling back asleep.

Letting out a sigh of relief, I then laugh quietly to myself. He's so much like Emerson. I know he will never admit it, but that was the most Emerson thing ever.

Waking up asking for a kiss and then going back to sleep. I hold back my laugh and attempt to look around his room to keep myself awake.

I'm going to last like 5 minutes.