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Chapter 102

July 24th

Asher's POV

"Papa?" I call into their room getting nothing in response. "Dad?" I try the other one, once again getting nothing. I step into the apparently empty room, checking the bathroom to find nobody.

Sitting on their bed, I sigh. They could have told me they were leaving. "Nope- no... stop being a brat" I lecture myself. I wonder where they went though. Maybe I could have gone with them. It's my fault I didn't come up sooner.

I push myself off of their bed and make my way into the hall and down the stairs. Ivy was on the couch laying on her twin's lap. The younger ones climbing all over their bodies. I could tell Ivy wasn't in the best mood by the way she just focused on the wall. Probably shouldn't bother them. She just wanted Kiara back... I did too.

I walked by them and stopped when I saw Atlas walking towards me. "Hi At-" he cuts me off kissing my forehead "hey Angel, can we talk later? Thank you" he rushes out and I watch him walk away.  "Yeah... yeah that's fine," I say to no one in particular.

The world does not want me to be happy lately. I put a hand on my heart and sigh. That hurt. Trilling my lips I walk forward. Not really knowing where I was going. I just didn't want to be alone.

I ended up stopping at EJ's room leaning against the door frame. "Hello" I wave to the toddler who was digging into his toy bin. "Hello boifiend" he smiles holding up some of his plastic dragons. "Can I play with you?" I ask walking into his room.

He stands nodding his head aggressively before suddenly stopping. "I'm sowwy I told papa I'm going to play with him and Gray- Gray" he apologizes grabbing more stuffed toys. "Oh, that's fine another time" I ruffle his hair.

He giggles going onto his toes "kissy" he sings and I bend down to give him a small kiss on the lips. Satisfied he runs towards his parent's room, toys dropping every few steps.

I bit my lip realizing I just got rejected by a 7-year-old, my absolute worst fear. Seren likes to be alone and I'd hate to bother her. Lyra is with her friends. Blaise and Ron are on their date, it would have been awkward to hang out with them anyways.

I guess I can go back to the twins. I nod keeping my head held high. I'm not going to cry and get upset over something so... unimportant. Walking into the common room I find Em gone, and Iris was bouncing a sleeping Imani on her lap. Ivy was just laying on her sister's shoulder and Isla was playing with some dolls.

"Hey" I manage to squeak out and my older cousins look over to me. "Hey" they both whisper Imani so close to sleeping. "You guys are busy... uh never mind" I chuckle pursuing my lips. "I'm just going to go" I point towards the kitchen door.

They send each other weird glances but nod. "Okay?" Ivy scoffs and Isla jumps onto her lap. I'm sure she didn't mean to sound rude because she immediately straightened up. "I'm sorry I'm just having a rough time" she calls to me but I quickly wave her off.

"No worries I understand" I smile pushing the door open with my back. As soon as I was concealed in the kitchen I leaned over the counter breathing heavily.  "It's fine, people have lives. Stop being a brat" I cringe at myself squeezing the countertop.

I was gritting my teeth holding back tears. "Stop crying" I whisper to myself sternly. I refused to let the tears fall, I can't cry over something so pointless and stupid as being alone. I'm going to be alone a lot in life I need to get used to it.

Standing I take another deep breath. I'm fine. The door burst open and I quickly wipe my cheeks making sure they were tearless before turning around. "Hi!" I say once again as my boyfriend rushes into the room.

He grumbles going to the cupboard full of his father's herbs. "Hey, are you feeling okay, have you ate?" He questions me, cheering to himself when he finds a jar full of acacia powder. "Oh, I'm feeling alright and I-" I'm once again cut off. "That's good, I promise we can talk more later but I really need to get these to dad... I'm so sorry" he trails off starting for the door.

The pang in my heart comes back as I watch the door close. "Haven't eaten yet, but I will" I bite my lip answering the question he asked even though he wasn't here to listen.

Flashing the door a thumbs up I lean against the counter. "He would be happy if I ate now!" I clapped my hands together before going to the fridge. I ended up just making myself a small lunch. It was kind of awkward sitting alone, and I listened to my feet tapping a random pattern.

Cleaning off my dish, I left the dining room to find the couches empty. I looked around the empty manor, sighing before making my for the door. I didn't make it in time as Herb stopped me. "Are you going somewhere, friend?" He asks hugging my leg.

"I just wanted to go for a walk- to clear my mind" I fumble for words as he released my leg. "I'm sorry friend, but I can't let you outside alone" he apologizes staring at the ground nervously. "It's fine... I understand" I nod rubbing my arm.

He gives me one last hug and I start my trek for the hall. I'm about to do something very bad. Something I know I shouldn't do but I really want to. Actually, I probably shouldn't I've been such a pain to my parents lately.

Even though I thought that, I still found my way into Atlas's room closing the door behind me. I didn't stop, going to the window. With a deep breath, I unlocked and pushed one of them open.  Looking down it was only a 6-foot drop... yeah only 6 feet. 

I'm not very smart. Swinging my leg over the side, I start to slowly lower myself before just hanging. I still had a foot below me so I squeezed my eyes shut and let go. I landed with a little pain in my feet but quickly blew it off.

Smiling at how warm the sun was on my face. I ended up just walking forward, well towards the back of the manor. It's a big house so I could just walk around it once and hopefully be calm.

I took big steps sprawling my arms out to enjoy the light breeze. I felt so free and I almost didn't mind being alone. Halfway around I stopped and decided to just lay in the sun.

The grass was a little long but it didn't bother me. From this angle, I could see the treetops bending and swaying as the wind occasionally whipped the leaves around. Birds chirped and it was almost the definition of perfect.

I wiped my eyes with a sigh. "I wonder if my parents are home" I murmur out loud sitting up. A sudden wave of uneasiness hit me and I quickly moved to my feet. I felt like I was being watched and it creeped me out, never having felt such an extreme gaze.

I turned on my heel knowing my mind was playing tricks on me because I wanted to get attention or something. Still, I walked a little faster than I was supposed to. I stopped outside of Atlas's window and groan. "Yeah, I'm not going to be able to climb back up that" I sigh and just head for the front door.

I was sort of hoping to stay out here longer, maybe I could just wait on the front steps for my parents or something... I don't know. I didn't get a chance as the door opens to Herb with wide and confused eyes. "Friend! How?!" He shouts running to grab my hand. Herb drags me inside as I look away shyly.

"I'm sorry, I'm okay though, so don't tell anyone!" I try to persuade him. He gives me a suspicious glare closing the door. "I don't want friend to be mad at me, but don't do it again" he pokes my hand. "Thank you so much!" I cheer pulling him into a hug.

"I have to go close Atlas's window!" I giggle turning to leave. "You jumped out of Atlas's window!" He shouts and I put my fingers to my lips to shush him.

"Who jumped out of my window?"

"Nothing!" The both of us shout before I dash to his room to dispose of any evidence.