You and me -always find a way back to eachother

my feelings

"come food is ready" said Magnus, stood up. "Iam not hungry, you go" said Alec adjusted himself on bed and closed his eyes.

"ALEC either you eat yourself or I will feed you. if you are stubborn, iam also" walked out of room towards kitchen.

He came back with food and placed tray at nightstand "Alexander getup".

But Alec didn't move "oookay you know, you can't fight with me. get up quickly or I will make you" his voice sound like harsh.

Alec satup quickly, his eyes filled with tears. Magnus sat infront him and placed tray on his lap.

"I I iam not hungry, I don't want to eat, why can't you understand" tears falling.

Magnus wiped them "no you are not but iam" said softly and took spoon, hold it infront of Alec mouth "open your mouth Alexander, this is first time the Magnus Bane feeding someone. so take this opportunity"

Alec not in mood to laugh for that statement, he opened his mouth to let Magnus feed him.

they both ate dinner there silently, after that Magnus picked tray, said good night to Alec and about to leave "Magnus, can you can you...." he took breath to say and Magnus turn around to see him "can you stay for a while until I fall sleep, I don't want to be alone. mom always be sat beside me until I fall sleep when I scared, please..." but Magnus didn't say anything turned towards door and walked away.

Alec started cry "ofcourse his gone, why would he wants to stay. he is not my mom, he don't care about me, he only say things like he care about me or like me. why would I have hope, he always love to torture me" thought lay there and hugged his pillow.

Alec felt soft touches on his hair, he opened his eyes saw Magnus lay beside him and running fingers on his hair.

Magnus saw tears on Alec eyes, he felt pain in his heart and moved close to him to kiss forehead then rested his head on pillow looking into hazel eyes.

Alec moved close and hugged Magnus, hide his head in Magnus neck, started to cry loudly. Magnus ran his hands over his back up and down soothing him.

"shh shh Alexander... it's going to be okay, I'm here... sleep".

Alec hiding his face on Magnus neck more closely and placed his hand on chest.

after minutes Alec drifted into sleep in Magnus arms, still hiding his face, Magnus can feel Alec slow breath hitting his neck and giving chills in his entire body.

Alec one leg tangled with his, arms around waist gripped tightly, don't want to let go of him in sleep also.

Magnus couldn't sleep, he keep thinking what happened today, how he fought with Michelle and how he worried about alec when accident happened without thinking about himself.

he looked Alec sleeping peacefully

'what are you doing Alec, do I care about you that much, i never felt like this before with anyone. I thought I just like you but there is more I can't figure it out. I always felt jealous because you are perfect kid that everyone admire.

I have that tag in childhood until you born. you taken perfect kid tag, adorable kid in both families with puppy eyes which my mom and dad also always melt and me who always fights with younger Alec,'bullied him', spoiled kid tag.

and now here we are.

I never thought this would happen, I thought I always hate you for how you taken everyone attention towards you with your cuteness and always fought with me, play with that blonde and nerd.

but I didn't think that perfect kid oneday turn into a man who can make me go crazy. made me realise that I never hated you, I have feelings for you. I fell for you Alec, now I can't escape from it, no matter what, iam not ready to lose you or see you in miserable condition.

I don't know if it's love or not. but I do want to know what it's mean to you. I like you Alexander so so much, now that scares me lot' thought closed his eyes, tightened his grip around Alec more.

Alec winced and moved lightly in sleep in Magnus arms.