You and me -always find a way back to eachother

it's not your fault

Alec opened back door of car and gesture to get in "Alec, I like to romance with you in car but infront of your college! it might be uncomfortable" said Magnus and Alec glared seriously "okay okay don't kill me with your looks".

Alec sat beside him with first aid kit, he was glad that Magnus maintain first aid kit in car.

'ofcourse he is, because he is doctor' thought and starts clean wound first.

"Alec I can take care of that, it's not big" said Magnus and try to take cotton but Alec snatched his hand away and continue work.

"Alec why are you so stubborn it's almost five days, talk to me" but Alec didn't respond, he just concentrated on wound and his hair falling to forehead.

Magnus hand reached to adjust it but Alec throw it away "don't touch me".

Magnus felt like his heart broken by that word but what can he do, other than trying until Alec forgive him.

Once his hand bandaged securely, Alec went to start car and Magnus looked confusly "Alec, are you sure you want to drive".

"why can't I, I have lisence and know how to drive. so do you have problem with that" asked Alec not looking at him.

"no, it's just you never driven before, I mean on highway and their will be lot of vehicles, you know what I mean"said Magnus nervously, he don't want to make big deal at same time he don't want freak Alec.

Alec sat on driver seat, starts engine 'ok no talk fine' thought Magnus sat beside him on passenger seat.

car moved slowly on road and Magnus impressed by Alec driving skill but soon his smile faded away when he saw Alec face.

He turn to look road and saw big truck coming other side, Alec driving towards it and speed increases, his eyes widened "Alec Alec stop the car or move steering to left" asked, but no respond coming.

Alec hands gripped steering tightly, his eyes just staring big vehicle, total body paralyzed and car ready to hit vehicle in fraction of seconds.

Magnus quickly removed seat belt and moved steering to left side and pressed break Padel, car almost hitted divider which caused to hit his head front but he didn't care, he just cursed himself and rubbed his head and turned to see Alec and hugged him tightly.

"Alec, Alec are you okkay" asked once he released Alec from tight hug but no response came.

He tapped Alec cheek "Alec come on, watch me, no road, just watch me, breath, just breathe".

Alec watched him and started to breathe slowly "mag ma Magnus I I saw them, they are right infront.... they, they..." cried.

"whom Alec, I don't understand, please don't cry....shh shhh" asked Magnus, try to calm Alec.

He listened police siren, quickly get off and opened door for Alec.

"what happened here, who hit divider" asked police woman pointing them, once she reached them.

"I did it, breaks didn't worked properly, so I have to take turn and then it happened" said Magnus.

Alec come to concious by that statement and turn to see Magnus and about say something but otherone stop him squeezing hand.

"Alec sit backside, I will take care of it" whispered.

"what happened to him,did you guys got any injuries" asked woman.

"no it's just shock, what just happened" said Magnus and opened door, pushed Alec into and closed car door and lean on it.

twenty minutes Magnus talked with police to convince her, finally he shake his hand with her and came back and sat on driver seat, put seat belt and watched Alec through mirror "are you okk" asked but Alec didn't given answer he just lay there.

"you know that woman is really nice. she didn't charge any case or penalty on us because it's just breaks problem and no one injured or harmed" said with smile but Alec didn't respond to that also. he take deep breath and starts car.

"Alec Alexander wake up, wake up" Magnus tapped Alec shoulder.

He opened eyes and watch around "we are at home, come on, you can sleep in your room" said Magnus giving space to Alec to get off.

Magnus went his room and removed his coat, throw it in laundry basket and stand infront of mirror in bathroom.

He examined his head, it's hurt like hell, he didn't showed pain that time and only concentrated on Alec.

once he confirmed himself that nothing happened, he entered shower cabin and tapped shower tap. warm water relaxed his muscles, he ran his hands through his hair and thought about Alec words 'what is he saying, whom he seen, why alec... what do I do, why Alec has to suffer like this, Alec you are making mylife more complicate' so many questions running in mind.

He finished bath, he put his clothes and went to check Alec. He opened door and saw Alec sleeping peacefully on bed.

'should I wake him..no let him sleep, I will talk to him later' thought and closed door.

It's already six clock so he starts to prepare dinner and once he was done, went to Alec room. his still sleeping and he looked like lost puppy, hugging his knees, make himself ball.

"Alec wake up, dinner is ready.... Alec, Alec" he shook his shoulder. Alec jumped little bit and sat, breathing heavily "hey hey it's me, it's me" said sat on edge infront of Alec.

"do you want to talk about it, who...who did you saw Alec" asked hesitately.

Alec didn't answer he stared his own palm that placed on his lap.

"Alexander I wanna know, please tell me, please" said Magnus placed his hand on Alec palm.

Alec lifted his head "I I saw them, I saw Dad, Max...they are infront of truck" tears falling from his eyes "and I didn't do anything like everytime... it's all my fault, they are gone just because of me...I should be the one would die instead of them and iam the..."

"ALEC IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT" shouted, Alec winced from sudden sound.

Magnus closed his eyes for second to calm himself "it's not your fault Alec, neither of anyone. we don't know that happen, you can't blame yourself, you can't be in grief all your life. accept it Alexander, they are gone and it's not your fault" said placed hand on Alec cheek caressed lightly.

But Alec removed it "no Magnus it's mine, they came to pick me, he is just kid Magnus, do you think he deserve it and my father deserve death like that" Alec looked broken, he had this grief for years now.

"so are you, you also kid Alexander that time and you don't deserve to make your life miserable. Please Alexander try to understand, try to get away, I will help you, please" said Magnus holding Alec hands. Alec nodded weakly, he don't want to argue.