You and me -always find a way back to eachother

your soul is mine

Magnus started to soothe Alec back.

"I will talk to you, please listen to me... don't send me away. I want to be with you. please iam already afraid. It's not what you think or anyone think. Iam okay, iam absolutely okay. please don't send me to home or hospital. I want to be in your arms, you promised me we both go together and you will help me to kill these demons inside my head" Alec whispered and hiccups came out loudly.

"shh...drink this" he handed a glass of water to Alec.

"Alexander, do you really think I can live without you!! and forty days is too much for me, I can't survive that long without you. Please tell me what's going on and don't hide anything" Magnus asked putting glass on the nightstand.

There was long pause and Alec stared at side window "iam stuck here….Iam stuck on a bed in a room, alone... Do you know how many dots are in this bedsheet!! how many colours used in that painting and it keeps changing shape when I see it over and over again" he said pointing at the painting on the wall. "I know everything in this room. you don't have any idea, how it's like to be alone" he mumbled.

"you are not alone, iam here with you. don't think like that. don't put pressure on your mind. It's only a few days" Magnus replied placing hand on Alec's hand and holding it tightly.

"no you are not, you go outside, you do your regular work, you see the atmosphere, sky, nature. I have only known these four walls for almost more than fifty days. I can't move, I can't do anything by myself, I only can stay in bed, I sit hours staring at the window and do you know how my ass hurts for sitting hours" Alec replied removing his hand from Magnus' grip.

"I totally understand, why didn't you tell me before, I can take you outside" Magnus asked.

"That's the problem, I have to depend on you, first I thought it's okay, you are doing this because you love me. what if you feel different about me when you start to feel bored or annoy" he asked.

"I never feel like that" Magnus said.

"you don't know about that and these nightmares keep haunting me. Why do you have to always be an asshole in my dreams!!. I shouldn't care about you, I shouldn't let you control me" Alec mumbled slapping his forehead.

"WHAT! you had a nightmare, when! how did I don't know about this, what exactly happened...I mean what was the nightmare" Magnus shocked, how he doesn't know about this.

"Nightmares Magnus!!. I have it everyday. do you want me to be happy because now iam having minor attacks only and I can take care of myself. or do you want me to feel bad because iam having them everyday...and every night, you are hurting me in different ways and it's possible to happen in real world" he chuckled while tears started to drop from his eyes.

"Iam not going to hurt you, when do you starts believing me. I love you Alec" Magnus said looking into hazel eyes.

"you don't hurt!!! Then why did you pull this trick instead of asking me straight. You love to hurt me in many ways" Alec said and looked away.

"what are you talking about Alec, I never liked anyone like I love you. I never cared about anyone like I care about you. all I want you, our happiness, our love, please look at me" Magnus asked.

"then promise me" Alec asked looking at Magnus.

"promise me, you never choose anyone above me. you will always choose me, no girl can attract you. you can only attract me" Alec asked showing his palm to make a promise.

"why I choose a girl over you. don't you trust me, then what is the meaning of my promise!. you can't keep your trust in me. what's the matter of all this" Magnus shouted, his heart broken listening to Alec words.