"(Y/n) you are telling me that you are married to the most handsome guy in the world and you haven't had sex with him?" Jean asked me on my vacation home.
"That is exactly what I am telling you. It was arranged and I am pretty sure he is utterly disgusted with me."
"Why would you say something like that?" She asked sitting back taking a sip of her drink.
"Look, Jean! He is the opposite of me. Confident and good-looking. I am self-conscious and 200 pounds of pure anxiety. I find myself disgusting sometimes. Why would he not when he is forced to be with me." I sigh and she leans forward to hold my hand with an apologetic look on her face.
"Ma'am I am told to talk you back home. Mr. Choi wants to talk with you." I sighed rolling my eyes.
"You can tell Mr. Choi I am still on vacation and if he wants to talk to me to pick up a phone or come here." He held the phone up to his ear but Soobin had already hung up.
"Why did you agree to marry him?" I sigh and look down at my phone.
"I was told all my life that no one was gonna want me for me. So I had no choice." I shrugged and downed my sangria.
Time skip
Even though I was in my home town I was staying at a hotel. That was a rule Soobin had for safety. He was very well known so to keep me safe one of his rules was I had to stay in a hotel he approved of. I hated this rule because he picked expensive places making me feel out of place. The bodyguards told him everything so if I didn't eat and was in the room. He order food for me. If I was out and wasn't drinking water he would get the guards to get me water. This vacation really made me realize he actually cares about me. Or he is trying to keep me alive until we get divorced then shove me aside for someone better.
I finally got to the room expecting to be alone for the rest of the night. But I was wrong. Soobin was sitting in the bed waiting for me.
"What are you doing here?" I asked shyly my face turning red.
"You told me to come to you so I did." I rolled my eyes.
"Okay, what do you wanna talk about that you couldn't wait until I got back home." I passed by him to go to the restroom and change but he pulled me to him. I landed on the bed on my back with him hovering over me. His eyes held a weird expression I have seen multiple time but never paid attention to it.
"You know the bodyguards tell me everything right?" He asked.
"Yes," I replied nodding.
"Well, I need you to stop talking bad about yourself. You need to know the truth." He looked me up and down.
"What is the truth?" I ask a hint of annoyance in my tone.
"I asked to marry you. I knew you would never believe me if I approached you so I made a deal with your family. It's not the right way to do things but over the last 6 months, I have fallen even more in love with you. Right now I am waiting for you to realize how much I care about you. And how extremely beautiful I think you are." I bit my bottom lip to hold back the tears that wanted to escape.
"Soob -" I let out with a stray tear.
"Shhh," he kissed me softly and deeply our tongues dancing together. The kiss started to get heated which made him flip over and I straddle him.
"Soobin" I tried to say in the kiss. He didn't pull away so I pushed away from him.
"I am sorry Princess did I do something?" I shook my head indicating he didn't do anything wrong.
"No, you didn't do anything wrong I just don't want to hurt you...." I looked away and facepalmed.
"Baby, baby look at me. You can't and never will hurt me. What are you worried about? I love you for you. Now please... ride me or my face but I don't want you to worry about hurting me." I giggle at his crude words.
"Jeez, you can't just say those things out loud." He chuckles at my cute reaction.
"Mm I can and I will... now you have two choices I make sweet and passionate love to you right now and fuck you later or I fuck you now and make love to you in the morning? Which one do you prefer?" He gently guided me back so I was laying on the bed again and he hovers over me.
"You make all the decisions anyway why don't you make this one yourself as well"
