Burning skin with each touch. Lips moving together in sync. Electricity when her lips are on my skin and vice versa. This feeling I never want to end clung to my chest heavily when that night flooded my head which was every minute of the day since that day.
She was an MOA a little older than most of our fans and the most beautiful person I have laid eyes on. I approached her with shaky hands, trembling lips, and the shyest of smiles. My first time approaching someone I liked since becoming an Idol.
We spent the whole week together in a secluded and ginormous hotel room. The plan was to have fun and then forget each other after the week was over. My biggest problem was...
I couldn't forget...
I couldn't forget her to save my life...
I couldn't forget the feeling I had with her...
I couldn't forget her...
I tried oh how fucking hard I tried but she plagued my mind living rent-free and I had no problem with it. The way her body trembled under me. The way she took control a few times. The way my body instantly melted and reacted to her. The way my lips craved her lips. The way my hand craved holding her hand. The way my skin burned craving her skin.
The spell she had me under was too strong. I hadn't told a soul about that week and the others were starting to notice something on my mind. Plain and simple...
I missed her...
Her smile...
Her laugh...
Her calming energy...
Her cute button nose...
Her long eyelashes...
The way her body molded to mine perfectly...
The sex was great but there was something more. It could be called chemistry but I think it was even more than that. It felt like we were meant to be and if I didn't find her soon I would possibly go crazy.
"Hyung are you okay? You have been spaced out for 1 hour and you seem down a lot." I looked up at Kai and realized all the other members were looking at me concerned.
I broke down...
I cried telling them about her...
How I felt...
The heavy feeling in my chest...
How I missed her...
How she never left my mind...
How we agreed to go our separate ways...
ALL OF IT!
"Soobin why didn't you tell us sooner? We could have helped you... we need to find her she is your soulmate"
'Soulmate'
I never put a word to it until Yeonjun said that word. I didn't think of it until that moment. When soulmates meet they yearn to stay together.
Does that mean she feels the same way I am feeling?
I hope it was true but all I knew was I needed to find her again or I would go literally insane.
"Yeonjun her name is (y/full/n)... do you think you can help?" I asked with hope.
"We all can help Hyung... anything for you and your happiness... you are our family" the group Hug felt extra special at that moment. The touch deprivation I was having was slightly satisfied for the moment.
We spent weeks trying to find her. Essentially she was a figment of my imagination when it came to finding her.
3 weeks
4 weeks
5 weeks
I was on the verge of giving up when...
"Soobin we found her" I looked at our manager that was super supportive but cautious at the same time. I stared blankly ahead and started crying from pure relief that I was hopefully going to meet her again.
"Soobin let me tell you she is a hard girl to find. She only has Instagram and her phone number no other social media. We did a background check and she kept her word to you, which makes her credible and safe for you. Here is her address and her work address" I got up and hugged all of the staff helping me while I cried.
"Thank you... I can not tell you how much I appreciate this" I looked at the address and started picking up my things.
"Can I ask one question?!?! How did you find her?" The staff all smiled at each other at the cute reaction I was having to all this.
"You said she was an MOA. So we had someone watching Weverse at all times, and we checked the list of membership and orders, and Soobin we found her... she preorders all the albums since debut and she has a Weverse account but very rarely post." I smiled thinking of her secretly supporting me even after everything. She was something out of a fairytale for sure.
I hugged everyone went running out of the room when I tripped over someone and they landed on top of me. The tingling in my skin and the racing of my heart... that addicting scent.
"(Y/n)"
