"Wow have you seen Soobin lately?" Rain walked in to my room looking at the photoshoot Soobin had just posed for.
"Mm I did" I hummed in response.
Soobin and I had a secret summer fling that I had not told anyone about. We met on vacation with our family and snuck around for the few weeks we were in the same place but nothing came of it.
Yes I fell in love with him but at the end of the day he's an idol and me... I am just a typical fan that had gotten lucky.
"I thought he was your bias" Rain spoke up again plopping down On my bed.
"He is but what do you want me to say? I saw them... he looks freaking amazing... the entire world is whipped for him... the whole 9 yards" I stated going back to my painting.
"Did something happen to you during summer? You have not been the same towards Soobin since?" She asked making me sigh and put my paint brush down.
"Nothing serious happened but I don't want to talk about yet... all you need to know is that... Soobin looks much taller in person" I smiled at the memories that flooded my head but when reality hit me I shook it out of my head and proceeded with my project.
4 months later
'So Soobin... you wrote this whole album for you and the other members... what had you so motivated?'
'Well I made a new friend on vacation and the way she looks at life inspired me. It got my creative juices flowing and now we have this album'
'Can I ask you a serious question? Is that one special song about her?'
"Turn that off you don't need to be watching it on repeat. He said the song is about that girl let it go." I rolled my eyes annoyed that Rain and Winslow have just been watching that stupid video on repeat.
"It's definitely you" Rain spoke up with no hesitation.
"The timeline adds up so it can't be anyone else but you!" I rolled my eyes again not wanting to think about it.
My 5 week summer fling with the Choi Soobin of TomorrowxTogether was in the past and it needed to stay their.
"Look we have not spoken. Maybe it was someone else. He didn't say a name so it's impossible it's me." The more in denial I was the better I coped with the whole situation.
"He didn't say a name but he shared one of your self portraits and a picture of you with your face covered on Twitter." I didn't believe them so I opened my Twitter and instantly felt nauseous.
"That whole album was about me wasn't it?" I looked at the girls giving me a worried smile.
"Yeah no denying it now"
Between the time of summer and now I refused to acknowledge my summer fling with Soobin. I kept telling myself it was a dream to cope with reality.
I really thought it was nothing but...
The late night walks.
The rainy day lazy kisses.
The morning cuddles.
The long hugs at night sleeping in each other's arms.
The endless laughter at nothing.
The tingling touches between his fingertips and mine.
This was all real and I couldn't deny it anymore. Mainly because...
He was at my door standing in front of me.
