My first boyfriend left me two weeks ago for the girl I was worried about the whole time. He said they were just friends but ended up dating her anyways. I was devastated not gonna lie. I sat in my room and cried. I sat in the shower and cried. I would see him around town and his smile with HER knocked the air out of my lungs. I was lucky to have my best friend by my side the entire time.
"(Y/n) please eat come on it's been two weeks" Soobin walked in unpacking what he brought me.
"Thank you Soobin" for the first time in two weeks I was actually hungry. I mentioned I sat in my room and the shower and cried. What I failed to mention was that Soobin would hold me when I cried. He would come talk to me while I was in the shower to distract me. He brought me food and basically moved in with me. I saw him differently but I knew it could just be because he was helping me in a hard time.
"So I was thinking after eating we could get in PJ's and watch a movie while eating ice cream." He smiled his cute charming simple smile that made me melt.
"Okay"
He was shy I knew that. It really made no difference with my feeling. When it was just us two he was different. His smile lit up my life and his dimples sunk my heart. His laugh was better than music.... He was my best friend!
Yep best friend... I had to remind myself of those 2 words A LOT in the last few weeks.
We both had mutual feelings of love but I was straight out of a relationship he helped me out of. The night I started feeling things I told him I didn't know if it was damsel in distress syndrome or I really had feelings. He said he has always had secret feelings for me but knew his place. He also said to take my time that he has waited this long he can wait longer.
I really had feelings...
I watched him shyly making out with another girl across the room one month after I told him my feelings. Two months after my awful break up. My heart shattered to pieces and the unbearable pain turned into stray falling tears down my cheeks. I was used to situations like this.
Right people wrong time...
Being the second choice...
All of it was normal. I usually felt nothing when it happened but my feeling were super different for him. This hurt more than my break up.
'I thought he was going to wait for me... guess I was wrong...' I thought to myself. I was in self destruct mode. I walked into the kitchen of the party and took a bottle of liquor downing it with a few pauses to cough at the burning sensation down my throat. The tears in my eyes caught the attention of some people in my friend group.
"(Y/n)?" Jane placed her hand on my shoulder. She could clearly see the pain in my face. I gestured my head the direction of Soobin and the mystery girl tipping my head back finishing the bottle off. She sighed knowing very well she wouldn't be able to help me at least not today.
Hours passed and I was so drunk I couldn't see straight. I was stumbling into the street pushing someone off of me.
I woke up terrified and panicking looking at my surroundings. Last thing I remember was fighting off a random guy. My surroundings seemed oddly familiar but no one was next to me. I started crying remembering last night and noticing who's room I was in.
I heard a groan from the floor and panicked even more.
"Soobin what happened last night?" He popped up off the floor and made eye contact with me. Something he rarely really did with anyone.
"You got stupid drunk last night and ran from the party. You tried to fight me off saying you didn't know who I was. I had to carry you home but when I tried sleeping next to you... all you did was cry saying really mean things about yourself and confessing all your feelings for me , but saying I would never see you that way." My face fell and I started to breathe hard panicking more. I stood up and took my belongings trying to leave as fast as possible.
"I am sorry..." I reached the door and opened it. It was shut immediately from behind me. His tall slim figure hovered over me.
"We need to talk this out so shut the door, put everything down, and lay back in the bed please" he whispered on my neck before pecking it. Chills ran up my spine and the tiny hairs in my arms rose with goosebumps as well. I went for the door nob again but was forcefully turned around and slammed against the door.
"Soobin you said you would wait but you were making out with that girl" I cried out the pain hitting my chest again.
He immediately connected his lips to mine gently. He would pulled away every few seconds before kissing me again. I didn't kiss back instead I stood shocked and frozen in place letting tears run down my face.
"Soobin" I sobbed out.
"(Y/n) please kiss me back so I know we can make this work. I was too nice to tell her to stop and I never kissed her back. We were playing a game... you know how it is." I looked up into his hopeful eyes.
"Soobin you are just doing this to make me feel better. I am not-" he cut me off quickly.
"You are not what? I have heard it all and I am telling you right now you have real genuine feelings for me. It's not damsel in distress syndrome. I will do everything in my power to make you mine by sunrise tomorrow morning just so you can be mine forever."
