Dislike let to Confusion, and Confusion led to Desire. He hated himself for not making her his, the day he laid eyes on her for the first time.
- leyrai
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"So y/n...did you choose someone?"
"what?"
"I said did you get your phone back?" Seojun repeated and I was left confused as I heard something completely different.
"A-Ah yea" I said as I waved my phone in front of the two.
"Y/n make a the right choice before I disappear"
"wHat?"
"Do you know for how much longer they're going to keep you here?" Suho repeated.
"Have you lost your hearing or something" Seojun added and I chuckled nervously.
"N-no sorry, I've just been out of it lately. Um excuse me" I said getting up and heading to the bathrooms of the room.
I locked myself and I splashed water in my face.
What is wrong with me?
I thought as I dried my face and finally came out once again
"Guys, I wanted to talk to you both actually" I said as I sat on the bed, now facing them fully while fidgeting my fingers, since I felt nervous
"What's up? Are you okay? Do you need a nurse?" Suho started to panic and I waved my hand in front of him, signaling that I was okay.
"Im okay don't worry...I think I will be now that im talking to you both actually" I said and they both raised an eyebrow, not expecting on what I was about to say
"I think I've given up on you both honestly. There is many reasons why tho. First I want peace in my life. If one isn't fighting the other then it's a normal day...I want us three to be best friends! Like we never were. That's all I wanted since day 1 but I couldn't since I happen to fall for both of you. Second, we are all getting hurt here. Jugyeong likes you Suho, is wrong of me to have feelings for you...she's my best friend after all and I'll do whatever makes her happy! Suho, I'm not the best person out there either... Seojun, you can find someone better than me. I honestly don't even know why you both see in me... and last but not least, myself. Im hurting myself by not wanting to hurt you three. I want to be in a healthy happy friendship with you two and I don't think I can do it if I still love you right? So let's give each other a break from each other and let's start over again shall we?" I said as tears formed in my eyes. I was very happy because I was finally learning to let go for the better.
They both nodded and I hugged them both.
"Thank you for understanding me and I'll see you guys Monday!" I said as they got up heading to the door.
"Bye y/n, take care and rest well" Seojun said and Suho nodded agreeing
"Call me if anything" Suho added
"I don't think that'll be necessarily" I gave him an apologetic smile and he nodded awkwardly while then walking away until I no longer saw them
I sighed in relief and then looked up at the ceiling as I laid on the soft mattress.
I felt my vision start to get blurry and soon enough tears fell down, wetting my soft cheeks
"I did it" I whispered to myself as a smiled plastered on my lips
I didn't understand why I was even crying but I felt a part of me leaving. Our friendship totally fell apart and it's up to me if I want to build it again. We are starting all over again, like strangers
All of our memories are now part of a past that I have to forget and that I will probably never go back to.
I'm just glad I did it
《 fast forward to Monday morning 》
"Are you okay?" Sua said as she sprayed perfume on herself before we headed to school.
"I'm fine" I said as I scrolled through my phone, being already ready for school
"Alright, what's wrong?" She said as she stopped her tracks and came closer to me
"I'm just not ready to face them—we're basically strangers but how I'm I supposed to just forget our memories together?! Both of them" I said as I fell backwards on her bed, hitting the soft mattress
"Y/n just let it go! You're a bad bitch. Just focus on yourself, you need that the most right now" she said and I nodded understanding that she was right
"Now give me a smile and let's go" I smiled at her and she helped me up
~.~
"Y/n? Wow you look so good" Jugyeong said as she hugged me.
"You dyed your hair?" Sujin said as she also hugged me. I nodded and she smiled
"It looks great" she complimented and I smiled.
"Let's get our stuff from the lockers" Sua linked arms with me and we walked towards the lockers.
As we walked outside we headed to our lockers when we noticed a small crowd formed a bit further down the halls.
"What could that be?" Jugyeong said and I shrugged.
"Should we check it out?" Sua said
"Meh, we are going to be late for cl—" I said but was cut off as Sua started dragging me to the crowd
"W-wait" I said but she kept on going, Sujin and Jugyeong behind us
"Excuse me please" Sua said as she pushed through the crowd to see what was happening
She gasped and I raised an eyebrow confused at her reaction. I checked it out for myself just to find Suho fighting someone
"Shit" I ran back to the classroom to see if Seojun had arrived. I found him sleeping in his chair and I shook him slightly
"Yah Seojun help me!" He looked at me and raised an eyebrow
