more than i can hold in my heart.

stay stay stay

a/n : in line with taylor swift's recent announcement for the release date of red (taylor's version), i made a fic about one of her songs in red, which is stay stay stay. this is a short, fluffy oneshot set on s8e22.

enjoy!

-jyka💕

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Miranda turned in her bed, missing the usual body behind her.

Ben was sleeping on the couch on his own volition. He knew he made a mistake, and even though it was his fault that he didn't tell her about his UCLA application, she felt guilty about the fact that she ruined his supposed proposal today.

She sighed, turning again. She felt cold, and uncomfortable. These past few weeks living with Ben made her depend on his presence, and she was scared she wouldn't like the thousand miles distance from him when he goes to LA for his internship. Especially since she can't even handle being a few meters away from him right now.

With a huff, she sat up, and went to the door, hesitating once before making her decision.

Miranda walked quietly to the living room, spotting her boyfriend's feet on the top of the side of the couch. She bit her lip. "Ben?" She whispered.

His feet moved, and soon, she was looking at his tired face. "Miranda?"

She walked closer to him. "Hi."

Ben looked at her with confusion. "A-are you okay?"

Miranda looked down, licking her lips. She tried to swallow over the lump in her throat. She wasn't used to putting aside her pride, or to ask for help, but she looked up and swallowed it down. "Stay with me."

His eyes softened, and a smile went up to his face. He stood up and walked to her. They went up to their bedroom silently, not touching, even if she was aching to put her hands on him.

They laid down on the bed, still avoiding each other. She wanted to talk to him, to keep him in her arms and not let him go away, especially with the thought of marriage in their minds. How were they going to last when they were so far away?

Ben moved, taking her destructive thoughts away and turned to face her. "Miranda?"

She hummed in response, moving her head to look him in the eye. "Yeah?"

"I love you."

Her heart pounded loudly in her chest. He was right. They loved each other. Looking into his eyes made her remove some of the doubt. Yes, she could end it right now, she had that choice in her hands but what good would that do? At least if she walked this road with him, she could say they tried. And really, by this point there was no choice. This man had captured her body, heart, mind and soul. She's staying in his arms, metaphorically, of course. She turned her head away, smiling softly. "I'm still mad at you."

Ben chuckled, moving closer to her. His hand touched the side of her arm. "I know."

Miranda rolled her eyes. "You find this funny, don't you?"

He shrugged. "A little. You're cute when you're mad." She laughed. Give it to him to find her adorable even in the face of annoyance. "Are we okay?"

She nodded, putting her hand up to his cheek. For a second, she was in a trance, observing his pores, his nose, his lips, his eyes. He was so beautiful. "Yeah. But we'll talk more in the morning?"

Ben leaned in to kiss on her nose as her eyes fluttered close. "Okay."