Paisley's POV
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All I felt was sadness, nothing more then the numb feeling of losing something important to you. I had now lost 2 people who meant the world to me, first Jordyn, now Ricky. I can't stand the fact that it was technically our fault that he left, he said something about us reminding him of how things used to be. The guilt was unbearable. My mind raced with thoughts, not allowing me to move. I felt frozen in place, I knew that there was hardly anything I could do now. He was gone.
"Wait! Ricky!" Erin's voice boomed out the door, her voice was scratchy. No luck. There was no response, just silent. The sun started to shine through the windows, it's no wonder why Ricky left so early. I doubt he expected anyone to be awake at this time. Looking at the clock on the wall, it read 5:45am. Erin turned back to us and walked upstairs, silent. Obviously she was pretty upset, Ricky was our big brother. I can honestly say, ever since the guys had joined us in this house I felt a lot safer. I no longer felt alone. Until now, I mean of course we had the other boy however, that didn't make this any less painful.
"I'm going upstairs." Riley's tears made her voice sound watery. I stood there in the kitchen, alone. Tears welling in my eyes, I refused to let them fall. Rather than stand alone, I then decided to join everyone upstairs. I didn't plan on sleeping though, I had to tell Kian! I assumed the other girls were doing the same thing.
"Kian?" I whispered, walking quietly over to the bed. The blankets were tossled and his hair was a mess. "Ki?..." I whispered again, he mumbled and rolled around a bit. "Kian." I spoke a little louder, he slowly sat up and opened his eyes a bit.
"What?" He groaned. I didn't know how to exactly tell him that Ricky left. "Pais? Are you okay?" His voice was a bit less groggy now.
"Ricky left, Kian." I whimpered, within an instant he crawled out of bed and made his way downstairs. I followed quickly, "I'm sorry." He didn't answer me back, just kept jogging down the stairs. He got to the kitchen and burst out the door, once realizing that Ricky was gone, he came back inside and walked over to me. My arms wrapped around him as he hugged me tightly, I could feel his breathing getting shaky.
"Did he give a reason?" Kian asked once he calmed down a bit.
"He said that we reminded him too much of how things used to be.." I kept my tone quiet, frightened that he may blame us girls. "I'm sorry." I whispered, he just kept things silent. I have to admit, that worried me even more so. I didn't want him to assume that we drove Ricky away.
"We have to at least try and find him." His voice was calm and relaxed, which surprised me. "Let's wake everyone. Now." He insisted, I just went along and did as he said.
"Everybody up!" I yelled, not knowing if the message had reached all of the sleeping bodies. "I said get u-" I was cut off.
"Shut the fuck up! We're up, God damn it!" A cranky Trevor screamed back. I shut my mouth and waited for everyone to join us in the living room. The boys all had tears running down there cheeks, some more than others. I felt awful, was this our fault? Maybe if us girls hadn't agreed to stay with the boys then none of this would have ever happened. I wonder where we would even be without the boys though, seeing the relationships that have formed. Where would I be without Kian? More important, where would the boys be without us? All of the questions seemed to vanish as one of the boys spoke up.
"Where should we start looking?" Connor asks, his voice sounding small and watery. It killed me seeing them like this, especially knowing that this entire thing may lead back to us. God that stung.
"I'd say we make teams and split up?" I announced, hearing my owns words this sounded like a fucking mystery cartoon. "What do you all think?" I added. Glances were exchanged around the room, each of them silently giving one another their opinions.
"Sure, I guess it'll give us the best chance of finding him." Everyone agreed. That was when we all got ready and set off. One question still lingered across my mind.
What if he doesn't want to come back?
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Hey loves!
How are you all? I think I'm going to end this book either next chapter or the chapter after that? (32 or 33)
Hopefully you all enjoyed this book! Oh! And here's another update on my writing...
I'M MAKING A NEW BOOK!
I haven't officially confirmed the name of the new story, however it is going to be a Ricky Dillon Fanfiction! I'll keep you guys posted don't worry!
Love you guys! Hope y'all have a lovely day ^-^
-Hailee
