Bellatrix's accomplice

Chapter 19

!!TW!!- self-harm

After about a week of feeling numb, my emotions began to flood in. I had now lost two sets of parents, each and every one of them murdered in cold blood.

I excused myself from dinner and said I was heading to bed. I made my way to the dungeons and ignored everyone in the common room.

Narcissa hadn't spoken to us since and we have avoided Andromeda since we were likely to kill her for what she had done. I entered my room and a rush of emotion came over me. I pressed my bedside table against the door so nobody could enter.

I then locked myself in the bathroom. I needed to feel something, anything.

I stared at my reflection in the mirror, staring at myself as I broke down.

I began to hallucinate and I saw my mother staring back at me. In a fit of rage, I punched the mirror causing it to shatter. Glass was scattered all around the room.

I slowly slumped to the floor, my back pressed against the cupboards. I scanned the mess on the floor and found a huge piece of glass. I picked it up and stared at it.

Impulse made me do it.

I drew the shard of glass against my skin. Blood seeped out of my fresh wound but I still couldn't feel anything. Tears rolled down my hot cheeks as I dragged it across my arm again. But, I still felt nothing. No pain.

After I had cut up both my arms and legs, I sat in a puddle of my own blood regretting my actions. I felt so weak.

I began to feel faint and my eyelids got heavy. I felt like I was here still yet so far away...

Bellatrix's pov

I went upstairs to check on Y/N since I knew she wasn't feeling too great earlier. But when I got to the bedroom door, it wouldn't open. I called her name but got no response, she must be sleeping. I tried the alohamora spell, still nothing.

I rushed downstairs and got Tom. We ascended the stairs and stopped outside my dorm door. He threw himself against it a couple of times before we heard a thud from the other side. Something that was keeping the door shut had fallen.

We burst through the door but she wasn't there. I checked everywhere in the room until Tom called me over to the bathroom. I stood in the doorway and looked at the scene before me. Y/N was lying there in a pool of her own blood. A blade lay next to her dishevelled arms and legs.

I rushed over to her crying. "Episky" I yelled through sobs. Some of the blood began to return to her weak body but the spell wasn't strong enough to fix her completely. She had cut too deep.

"Tom go and get someone's help now!" I cried. I held her in my arms and cradled her. She was so pale and her cuts were still bleeding. I couldn't lose her, not when we have just found love.

My uniform was covered in her blood but I couldn't care less. All I wanted was for her to be alright, I can't understand why she did this. She knows that she can talk to me.

Madam Pomfrey rushed in alongside Profesor McGonagall. McGonagall screamed in shock as Madam Pomfrey fixed her up. I felt myself being pulled away from her but I fought back. I will not be taken from her, she needs me.

"Bellatrix please, you can't stay here" Tom shouted, forcing me away from her. I screamed out in pain. "I can't leave her" I cried. "I love her" I whispered so nobody could hear.