The last month - Karlnap

May 8-Sleepover

Tw/Cw: Self-hate, mentions of self-harm, dyslexia and depression.

Karl POV:

I text Sapnap at 4 pm. I need his address to meet him up.

Sappy nappy :>>>

Heyy! Where do you live? I plan to go now :]

Hi! I live (address here hihi) I'm ready come whenever! :)

Okayyy see u soon! :}

I start walk with the EarPods in my ears. I listen to 'Sweater weather'. My favorite song that somehow makes me think of Sapnap.

"Stop fall in love with a straight guy! He will laugh at you if you tell him."

My thoughts again. Why does they always follow me?! Can't they just leave me alone!

Around 15 minutes later I was there. In front of a gray house. That must be Sapnaps.

I walk to the door and knock on it. Just seconds later it opens and Sapnap stand there.

"Hello! Welcome in! We are home alone today." Sapnap says and hugs me.

"Hiii! Thank you, it's a really cool house!" I say and smile while walk in.

"Thank you."

Sapnap gives me a quick house tour before end up in the kitchen again. I guess it is time too cook some dinner.

"So are we hungry? We can do Tacos!" Sapnap say happily.

"Yeah sure! I love tacos!" I answer and we start cook.

It is funny and we joke around a lot. For a second the thoughts and memories from yesterday night flash through my head. I stop laughing and say:

"Yesterday I was about to do self-harm. But I didn't find the knife. Then I remember you had cleaned it up, I saw it in the thrash bag. B-but I didn't pick it up... You threw it there of a reason..." I meet Sapnaps glaze and wear a serious face.

Sapnap put his hand on my shoulder and say quite:

"Karl. I'm really proud of you. I hope it continue that way. Call me if you need to talk because I'm always there for you. Whatever time it is I will always be there for you! Okay?"

I nod and continue chop cucumber and tomatoes.

When we finally are done we eat it and dish our plates. We decide to watch a movie because it is pretty late. We take some chips and popcorn with us and turn on the tv.

"Wanna see a scary movie? I know a good one!" Sapnap say and creep up in a cozy blanket.

I think for a moment. I really hate scary movies and always get nightmares. But if I'm scared Sapnap can maybe cuddle with me? So I say yes.

"Okay, but I get really scared easily sooo... Is it okay if you like cuddle a little with me?" I say as a joke so it not should be awkward if he say no.

Sapnap laugh a little and move a little in the couch so I can move closer to him.

"Okay come here!"

I lay on Sapnaps chest on my back and turn my head to the tv. Sapnap pull the blanket over us both and turn on the movie.

One and a half hour later are filled with me getting jump scared every second and hide my face in Sapnap shirt and he just laughing at me.

After the movie has ended we are tired. Sapnap start bed on the couch for me and we get ready to sleep. Change clothes and brush our teeth.

"Is this okay? I'm upstairs if you need me! Good night Karlos." Sapnap mumble and hug me good night before walk upstairs to his room.

"Yeah, good night!" I whisper back and crawl up on the couch.

My thoughts mixed with the scary movie scenes creep in my head. The movie was very scary.

"Are you like 3? It is only babies that is scared of movies. But you are a baby so it explains a lot."

I lay down and try to tell myself some stories about me and Sapnap in my head like I did yesterday. I doesn't work. I wonder if Sapnap is still awake?

I feel my body walk up from the couch, upstairs and to the front of Sapnaps closed door. I knock carefully before open it. I don't wait for him to answer. I sneak in and close the door after me.

"I-i had nightmares... Can I sleep with you?" I ask shyly.

I feel my cheeks blush but Sapnap won't see it in the dark.

A light screen next to the bed gets dark and I hear sheets moving.

"Of course! Come and lay here!" Sapnaps groggy voice say in the dark.

I lay beside him. We lay on the side with Sapnap arms around my chest and his cheek on my shoulder. I hear his slow and heavy breathing. It scare all thoughts away. Soon we both fall asleep.

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