Tw/Cw: Depression, Dyslexia, mentions of suicide, mentions of self-harm, self-hate and suicidal thoughts.
Sapnap POV:
How could he do this to me?! What did I do? Did I do anything wrong? Everything is happening so fast what is going on?
All my happy feelings fell out of me and tears as well. I just stood there in the kitchen with my eyes stuck on the boring white wall. Karl left the room with tears in his eyes as well. I heard his footsteps walk upstairs.
My mind was questioning itself of what I did wrong and why Karl did what he did but I couldn't come up with an answer to that
Karl POV:
Sapnap and I sit next to each other on the kitchen table. I have tears in my eyes and Sapnap look at me with a worried glaze. He holds a comforting hand on my back but I just push it of. I want his love but I can't have it now. It will us both wrong impressions of the situation.
"Sapnap..." I feel tears pushing on the inside of my eyes but I can't let them out right now. I have to stay strong.
"What is it my love?" Sapnap whisper worried and it feels like I'm about to destroy his poor, innocent heart.
"I- I can't... I can't love you anymore! I'm sorry if this might hurt you but... We can't be together anymore." I say and the tears I tried to hold back is now dripping down on my cheeks.
Sapnap freeze and the only thing that show his not petrified is the small, salty water drops that is burning in the corner of his eyes.
How could I do this to him? He's the only thing I have.
The only person who make me leave the bed in the morning. The only person who make me wanna smile. The only person who can get me stop crying at nights. The only person that got me stop self harming.
The only person who made me live this last month.
We have to take different paths now. He can't live with me who just infect everyone and everything with my dark virus. I can't destroy his perfect life with my fucking problems. He will be a beautiful male eventually with a loving partner and adorable kids. He will have a great job and live in a fancy house. I can't destroy that for him.
And I... I will just end up in hell. Nobody on the earth needs me anyway.
"Is this something your dad has told you to do?" Sapnap cry out.
"N-no. I'm sorry... It's better this way." I mumble and meet Sapnaps eyes fast before looking away again.
"B-but..." He stutter, not really knowing what to say.
"I- I think my family is out of town so I will move back too my house tomorrow... I'll sleep on the couch tonight." I say and leave the room to pack my bags and get some privacy for a while.
With the fact that I just broke Sapnaps heart in the meanest way possible, I leave him staring at the wall with emptiness filled in his body. I'm really a awful person...
~A beautiful little times skip~
A couple of hours later I am laying on Sapnaps couch in his living room with one packed bag on the floor next to me. I can hear Sapnap cry from upstairs and all I just want to do is walk up there, and cuddle him until he stops crying and fall asleep in my arms.
"You're an awful person, but this was the only right thing to do..."
I have no energy left to argue back to my thoughts so I just fall asleep.
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