Tw/Cw: Dyslexia, depression, self-hate, mention of suicide, suicidal thoughts, mentions of self-harm and fluff :)
Karl POV:
"AAAAA!" I scream.
My skin is all sweaty and my heart is pounding really fast. I am sitting in Sapnaps bed and with a blanket in a mess on my legs. I can't remember what happened. What did I do yesterday?
Soon everything fall together like a puzzle. But what did I dream? A nightmare. But what?
Sapnap run upstairs with a worried face.
"What happened?!" He say and sit down next to me.
I burry my face in his hoodie and let it all out. All tears makes the fabric all wet. Two hands rub me calming on my back.
"It was a n-nightmare! Say- say it was that Sapnap! My d-dad support me-e, right? H-he love me, right? Ev-everything is just a dream, right? A bad fucking nightmare!" I sob out and meet my boyfriend eyes.
I know it isn't. I know that the things my dad did is real, but it it feel so fake. So surreal.
Sapnap look back in my eyes and he start cry too.
"I'm sorry..." He just whisper after a little moment of silence.
I cry more in his shirt. It feels good to let it all out. We sit around 20 minutes and just let our loud sobs out. Finally Sapnap let go of me and say:
"Should we get up and eat breakfast? I did it while you were sleeping."
I nod and we get up from the bed. I am just wearing a hoodie with my boxers so I pull out a pair of black jeans from my backpack to wear.
Sapnap look at me and when his eyes meet my legs he freezes. First I don't understand why. Then I remember. That night when I cut myself. When I borrowed his razor even if I had promised him to not.
"Karl... You promised me..." Tears is forming in his eyes again.
Mine to. I hide the scars with my hoodie sleeve even if it's too late.
"I'm sorry, I... Had to! My thoughts said that!" I cry.
Sapnap hug me again. He rest his chin on my head and hold his arm around me so I'm close to him. I make a new tear-stain on his shirt but on his chest this time.
"It's okay... But please, it break me every time. For me, at least try, okay?" He say quiet and place a kiss on my hair.
"You always disappoint him! You always fail. You're a mistake, Karl."
"If someone just loved me..." I sob and wish Sapnap doesn't hear.
Sapnap grab my shoulder and pull me away, glaze my eyes. I do the same.
"I love you. I really do and without you my world would be completely darkness!" He say.
I start cry again. Looking at his beautiful eyes like I have done so many times before.
"I- I love you too..."
We melt in to a warm kiss of love. A blush cover our chins. Sapnap put his hands around my neck and I put mine on his waist.
I really love him. I mean it. He made me laugh when I never thought I would do that again. He calmed me down when I fell apart. He build me up when I was on the bottom. I will love him until the month is over. And after that to even if it will take a long time before I see him again.
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The last month - Karlnap
FanfictionHIGH SCHOOL AU, DSMP/KARLNAP SHIP STORY. "I can't anymore. This is the last month. My whole life, everything is crashing. The 31st may will be my last day of living..." Karl is having problems with dyslexia and depression. His family hates him and h...
