The last month - Karlnap

May 9-In love

Tw/Cw: Depression, dyslexia, mentions of suicide, suicide thoughts and self-hate

Karl POV:

I wake up of a smell of egg and bacon. Where am I? Right. At Sapnaps. I go up and change clothes. I forgot clothes home so I borrow one hoodie of Sapnap and take my jeans from yesterday. The hoodie is really comfortable. It is black with white arms and hood.

I walk downstairs and in to the kitchen. Sapnap is humming a song and flip eggs on a frying pan. He doesn't notice me when I sneak in to the room.

"Good morning! What are ya doing?" I ask and sit down beside the table.

Sapnap turn his head while place the eggs and bacon on two breads.

"Hi! I'm making some breakfast! Are y- ...Hey, that my hoodie!" He laugh and elbow me in the side.

I blush and nod. I hide my face in the hood.

"Can I borrow it? I forgot to take one with me."
I say and pull down the hood again.

"Yeah, yeah of course! You can keep it!" He just giggle and place the plates on the table.

"Oh thank you! It's really comfortable." I answer happily and we start eat.

The food taste good. I don't know why he is cooking British breakfast, but I like it.

When we are done we dish our plates.

"What should we do?" Sapnap ask.

"Let's go to the beach! It really warm outside."

"Good idea! I know a really good place we're nobody are! Wanna borrow swimwear?" He ask and walk upstairs to his room.

"Yes thank you."

The following hour we spend to get ready and walk to a lake not too far from Sapnaps house.

The lake is beautiful. We are on a cliff over the water. It's no people here. Just me and Sapnap are alone here. It's calm and relaxing.

"Hey jump in!" Sapnap shout and we jump together in the water.

We fall down from the cliff. I know that soon I will feel this feeling in a terrified way. I will jump and fall exactly like this. Without Sapnap.

I land in the water. I survive. In less than a month I won't survive that jump. I will die of the ground.

I drop my thoughts and swim up to the surface again. Even if the deep sadness is still left I apply a smile and hope to forget my thoughts again. My hair is slicked on my face and it's dripping everywhere.

Sapnap show up over the water to. His wet dripping hair is covering a little bit of his eyebrows and eyes. I really want to kiss him. Right here, right now. He is so hot.

We are in the water for a long time before we go up. We sit on the cliff and look out over the glittering water. It's sunset.

I turn my head to Sapnap who is next to me. He has closed eyes and is enjoying the sunsets warm shine. His skin is shining orangish and the hair has now start dry.

I have to tell him. My feelings for him. But he will hate me. But I have to, it's my last month and I have to live it before it's over. I turn my head back and facing my legs.

"Sapnap I- I like you more than a friend..."

I immediate regret it. Tears start run down my cheeks. I stand up and pick up my clothes. Ready to run.

Sapnap looks confused when I'm moving so fast. He tries to say something but can't come up with anyhing.

"Karl I-"

He can't say more. I have already start run. Away from him. Home.

"Run Karl. He hates you more now. Why did you do that?! Your so fucking stupid!"

The thoughts are overheating my mind and they all have the same option.

This time the voices really was right. He hates me now. He must do.

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