The last month - Karlnap

May 31-Forever

Tw/Cw: depression, dyslexia, suicide, suicidal thoughts, mentions of suicide and self hate (kind of).

Sapnap POV:

"KARL!!!!"

I feel the tears burning in my eyes and it's hard too breathe. I run over the small grass area. Karl turn around. He looks beautiful actually, with the wind in his hair and the flawless skin. Even if he's crying, he is the most pretty thing on earth. Dry tears is resting on his chins and his red eyes are glossy from crying.

I stop a few meters in front of Karl. I don't want to scare him or stress him out.

"Karl you don't have to do this!" I cry out and meet his sad eyes.

"If you walk closer I'll jump without warning." He coldly tells me.

"Karl, I can help you out of this! You're not a mistake and I love you SO much!"

He just shake his head.

"No Sapnap. You don't understand. I have too, it's too late too help me." He tells me.

"NO, KARL!! PLEASE STAY!!" I break down on the ground. My legs can't hold me anymore.

"I'm sorry. I love you and I will always do. Forever."

I feel exhausted. I can't speak or move. I just sit there in the wet grass and cry.

"Goodbye Sapnap." Karl say and make one last smile.

He takes a step back and I see him fall. I crawl fast to the cliff and look down. Karls eyes are shut and a small smile is playing on his mouth. His hands are relaxed and slightly open. I reach out my hand to grab him but it is too late. I scream out in pain when I hear the weak duns below me. I'm too scared to look down but I still do it. It's too far down to see anything and the fog isn't really helping me.

Twenty minutes later I'm still laying in the grass. It's cold and wet against my face and hands. I don't care though. All tears are gone but I still feel a big hole in my body. It needs too be filled up with love. From Karl. Unfortunately that can't happen and it's hard to understand that. My whole world has fallen apart, all because of a boy. A boy I met for less then a month ago.

From nowhere a young female comes running. She is holding a paper in her hand. She has pink/white hair and glasses. It looks like she's crying.

I sit up and look at her running too the front of the cliff, looking down. I get a feeling that she is looking for Karl. I stand up and walk closer to her.

"Are you looking for Karl?" I ask quite.

She turns around and nod with tears in her eyes. I sit down in the grass again and gesture with my hand for her to sit next to me. I don't want her to accidentally trip and fall. She does like I tell her and I look her in her eyes before start explaining what I am doing here and what happened. While I'm doing that she start crying again. When I'm done we just sit there, crying. It feels a little better too see that someone else also is feeling like this.

"C-can I hug you? I think we both need a hug before we talk..." She tells me and I nod.

We went in for a hug and hold each other tight. She smells nice and it's calming to feel someone's warmth. We are crying in to each others shirts for a while. When we finally let go it feels a little better.

"You must be Karls boyfriend. He told me a lot about you." She says nicely.

"Yes... Sapnap is the name. And you are?" I answer.

"I'm Niki, I was Karls friend. We met for not long ago actually, only a couple of days."

I nod and continue the conversation.

"How did you know he was here?"

"For twenty minutes or something I woke up of someone screaming. It was probably you then. I live like two minutes from here, walking. When I looked around in my room I saw this letter. And when I read it I connected 1 plus 1 and got two. Ended up here... But I was too late." She say, almost losing her voice at the end.

I nod.

With the world fallen apart there's only one thing in Sapnaps head. Forever. Sometimes 'forever' is a good word. Not today. It can be a really mean word. Especially now. Karl is gone, forever. Sapnap will be broken, forever. He will have a big hole no one can fill up, forever. He will miss Karl, forever.

Forever, forever, forever.

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780 words

The end!!!!

Oh god I'm so proud of this chapter. Might sound very psychopathic but I'm happy with how I wrote it. Give me some criticism if you want!

Sorry if I made you cry! I can make a bonus chapter with a haply ending if you want to! Answer here if you want that so I'll might do it for y'all!

I'll soon start up with a new book... A dnf story, not a sad story this time!

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