You Are Mine, Again? ( Again Trilogy #2)

Chapter 26

CHAPTER 26

We stayed there for an hour before we finally decided to leave. Masyado narin kasing mainit sa balat ang sikat ng araw ngayon. It’s already 11am and the heat coming from the sun was too intense that our skin can’t handle it. Baka sumakit pa ang ulo namin at magkaroon ng heat stroke.

“ Uhm… I bring a car” I said while we are walking going out from the cemetery.

Tumango siya sa akin at hinigpitan ang kapit sa mga laruan na binili narin para kay na Aedan. Idi-display namin iyon sa shelf na puro laruan lang ang laman. Iyon naman lagi ang ginagawa niya…ngayon lang talaga ako naka bisita sa kaarawan ni Aedan. Pero si Aston…he usually do this, this is just my first time.

“ Yes, I saw it. I parked my car beside yours”

Oh! I thought he didn’t saw it. Pero sabagay ilang sasakyan lang naman ang nakaparada rito. Hindi naman kasi November kaya walang gaanong tao. Ang ibang nandito ay mga dumadalaw talaga. Like us.

“ Did you have a panic attack when you a truck?” he asked

Sa tanong niyang iyon ay napangiti ako. Pilit ko lamang tinatago sa kaniya. Nilagay ko ang dalawa kong kamay sa aking likod at pinaglaruan ang aking mga daliri. His voice is full of concern that melt my heart. I wonder if he’s not angry anymore?

Parehas kaming may kasalanan. Siya na nadala sa galit, sa selos at ako na hindi siya hinayaan na alagaan ako sa oras na nahihirapan ako. Nagselos siya kay Regan because he’s there when I was in pain but Aston was too far away from me that time. Selfish siya. He admit that. Selfish siya when it comes to me dahil gusto niya siya ang magpupunas ng luha ko, ang nandiyan para alagaan ako sa tuwing ako’y nasasaktan.

Tumango ako dahan dahan sa kaniyang tanong.

“ I did but I overcome it. I just realized that I should face my greatest fear and confront it. It’s a process too to be okay”

He smiled at me. Lumapit sa akin at hinawakan ang aking kamay even if he’s holding so much things. Ayaw niyang ipadala niya sa akin ang mga paper bags and gift. Dala dala niya sa isang kamay ang cake at paper bag, I don’t know why he can hold that in just one hand. And the other, he’s holding the gift box for Aedan. Siningit niya sa kaniyang braso iyon upang hawakan ang aking kamay.

“ You can be okay…just don’t rush it, okay?” he calmly said

I nodded again “ I understand”

Life is full of pain and happiness. It’s not life when we don’t feel pain. Pain is also part of learning and growing. It teach us a lesson that we can apply in our everyday life. I also realized that…there’s nothing to be scared of when you feel pain. There’s a reason why we feel that.

After the rain there’s a rainbow so after the pain there’s a happiness ahead of us. Naglalakad palang ako papunta sa daan na nararapat sa akin. This is just a challenge for me. God wouldn’t give me a problem if I can’t solve it.

Sabi nga ni Sarah Louise Delany, Life is short, and it’s up to you to make it sweet. This is my life, I am responsible of making my life became happy. This is not the end, it’s just because we feel pain doesn’t mean it’s the end of us. We should be optimistic, we should be positive in our life. If the world gave us a thousand reason to cry show them that there’s a thousand reason why we should smile.

Bigla akong nakaramdam ng kaginhawaan sa akin. Nakarating na kami sa aming sasakyan nang may naalala ako. I stop and looked at him. Hindi pa niya nabubuksan ang pinto ng kotse niya. Hinihintay niya muna akong makapasok.

“ Can we go to the church? Kahit sandali lang”

It’s Aedan’s birthday and we should pray for his soul. I should thank Him too for making me this brave. I have a lots of questions to Him. Like, is my son’s okay there? Syempre oo naman, sino bang hindi magiging masaya sa langit? May nakapagsabi sa akin na…if you’re in the heaven. You wouldn’t feel pain anymore.