Choices | calum hood & luke hemmings ✔️

three

calum

Alex is always the one to take care of us. She'd look out for us and tell us what we're doing wrong when we were. All of us kinda relied on her. We knew Alex would be there when we'd never expect her to be.

Alexandra would always smile no matter what. Every little thing, you'd find her smiling. Big or small, it was a smile. We'd tease her, especially me, for being amused too easily. Now that I really think about it, I'm glad she always smiled. It put everyone in a good mood.

I feel guilty, sad, and angry at all the same time. It's a really horrible feeling.

I feel guilty for taking advantage of Alex. We all took her for granted. I got so caught up in my own feelings that I spent most of our time with each other by insulting one another. Most of those insults came from me and that's how I pushed her away at first.

I just got her to warm up to me.

I'm mad at the world for doing this. Alex mostly grew up with friends and close family instead of her parents. I now realize how blessed I am to have my parents and my sister. This only makes me feel more angry with the world because Alexandra deserves the best for her well-being.

She needed her friends' support, and all I sent her were insults for almost two years straight.

Last but not least, I'm sad because she's in the damn hospital.

It's been one freaking hour waiting in these uncomfortable chairs and I'm starting to become more impatient. We've heard nothing yet.

Luke is also in a room. All of us aren't sure what's wrong but we know that it's really bad. He did look terrible. However, we are just hoping for the best right now.

Most of us are bandaged. All of us are full of worry, too. Both of our best friends are in the hospital care and all we can think of is how this has occured at such a terrible time.

We were getting far into our tour and really enjoying time with one another.

I found out a little earlier that we're in Albuquerque and we went to the closest hospital. I heard Madi calling her family back in Texas. She told them to stay there and to not worry about us.

I wish she could tell that to herself, too. Not the stay there part, but the don't worry part. She's shaking and crying and a hot mess overall. We're all a freaking hot mess. We haven't changed our clothes, showered, or even eaten anything.

Alex and Luke are the only things we're caring about right now. Their lives are on the line and we need to be there for them. Well, we are not completely sure but we have to treat it like they are. I'm really scared something bad will happen to them but something already has.

I'm just hoping for the best. Praying that everything's going to be all right

Everything will be, my subconscious assures me and somehow I feel like he's speaking the truth like he always does.

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Ok wow um sorry for the short chapter

Thanks for reading <3
-H

*Edited 6/7/18 things will start looking up soon, I promise*