Choices | calum hood & luke hemmings ✔️

twenty-six

alexandra

Calum.

The person who I most wanted to see.

Being sarcastic, of course.

I tried not to have an annoyed look on my face towards him, so I mask it with a smile. The level of annoyance can only go so far with the brunette, though. For some reason, I can never think straight around this new person, who I unfortunately seemed to forget about.

However, being honest, deep down inside of me I feel that I am the closest I have ever been with Calum. I know I might not remember absolutely everything, but recently I have taken time to figure out things about him and I love every second of it. It gives me a weird thrill of not knowing anything that happened before and starting fresh, like a clean slate.

It feels like I don't have to worry about the mistakes that I probably have done before, but the downfall of it is that everyone else remembers those moments. I will still have this reputation of myself that I won't know the backstory of. So yes, it's a clean slate for my own mind in a way, but the people around me do not forget all of the events that happened.

That's the frustrating part of it all, though, since people try to talk to me about things that occurred before and I don't remember. People like Calum.

I try to explain the struggles of having incomplete memories, but they don't understand. Because of those holes in probably really important, valuable moments, I think that's what pushes me away from them since it was part of their lives but not mine.

"Oh, am I interrupting?" He stops in his tracks and his ears redden with a familiar blush, and I have to get control from basically losing myself. "Again." He looks at Luke across from me and I fail to contain my chuckle, now knowing it was Calum who made him hang up from our phone call earlier. I try not to say anything about currently, but I'll make sure to ask Luke about it.

I began to say no, but Luke beats me to it.

"Yes, you are." He looks at Calum with cold, darkening eyes. The once shining blue I looked into a minute ago turned to stony navy. I turned back to look at the blonde and was about to scold him, but Calum cuts me off.

"My bad." The bass player holds his hands up in surrender and starts to back away to where he came from. "I guess we can wait." I notice the side of his mouth becomes a slight frown when he turns around.

This time I actually look at Luke disappointed, and he just shrugs in response. I slouch a little before stopping him. "Cal, wait," He pauses mid-step and spins on his heel to face me, while I come around the island to stand next to Luke. "What were you going to say? Yanno," I elbow the lead singer in the ribs and continue as he groans in pain. "before mister rude declared his death wish."

"I hate you." The tour member next to me mutters and I smile sweetly at both of the males.

"I know."

Calum laughs before explaining, "We were just about to tell you our plans for the singles' release." He smiles brightly, like he didn't just get shunned by his best friend, and I was surprised how smooth the words slipped from his tongue.

"Oh! Please, do tell." I clap my hands together and he nods, walking back into the living room. Turning around I whisper, "To be continued," and wink before following in Calum's trails. Luke breaks into a smile and nods as well.

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"Ah, there they are. I almost thought it wasn't going well." Madi eyes both the boys next to me warily, then meets my eyes and continues. I struggled with trying not to question the reason behind that fearful gaze, but I added that to my list of things I need to talk about with people.