first love ⁀➷ y.jw ✓

5

It was already Monday, the start of a new, yet repetitive week of school. I didn't actually mind school, I quite liked school, matter of fact. I wanted to graduate high school in order to graduate college and get a job with a nice pay. In order achieve that, I need to do well in school. Especially since it's my last year in high school.

People always say you can slack off senior year, but I think senior year is very important. You prepare yourself to be an adult. That's why I've never understood why the people at my school care more about popularity than their education. I think it's quite dumb, but everyone is different and their motives are different.

Anyway, since today was Jungwon's first day at our school, I decided to walk with him to school instead of Minju and Yeji, just so he gets the idea of how to get there by himself. The girls were totally okay with the idea, they'd just meet me at school when Jungwon and I arrived there.

I was kind of dreading walking to school with Jungwon. We briefly caught up with each other over the weekend when we first encountered, but it doesn't make up for the never-ending awkward atmosphere.

I mean, it's expected; we ended off on a bad note the last time we saw each other which was years ago, so of course it would be awkward, but still. I didn't like the feeling. I like to say that I'm always easy going and care free, but it's different with him. I don't know. Things are completely different whenever I'm around him or talking to him. I don't like it. But... I'm a nice person. The guys asked me to help him feel comfortable at school, so I will help him around. I think he will be okay in a few days.

If the guys haven't asked me to help him, I wouldn't have ever interacted with him at all. I probably shouldn't hold grudges anymore, but I don't know. I think it will always be awkward. Other than helping him with school, I don't think I'll go out of my way to hang out with him or be friends with him. NOT seeing him would be impossible, since we're all in a large circle with my brother and he's best friends with Jungwon, but I'd rather not be friends with him. Maybe that will change later on, but for now, I'll stay away from him.

It sucks for him that Riki and Jay go to a different school than Jungwon. I would have thought he'd transfer to their school, but maybe there was no more slots at the school to accept Jungwon. I think it'll be no problem for Jungwon to make new friends. When we were little, he was really outgoing and it was super easy for him to befriend people.

Right now, I just finished brushing my hair and putting some light makeup on. I stayed in my pajamas and went downstairs to eat breakfast. Heeseung was on the couch watching some anime. It still surprises me to this day that he wakes up pretty early. He stays up really late but isn't that grumpy in the morning. It's about 7:30 right now as well. He's a pretty weird human being. That's my brother for you.

"Good morning, Hyewon." Heeseung said to me once he noticed me in the kitchen.

"Morning. Did you sleep okay?" I ask him while eating some greek yogurt and strawberries.

"I slept okay. I stayed up until like, 3 in the morning watching Jujutsu Kaisen." My brother responded while munching on some banana chips.

"It's 7:30. You had about 4 hours of sleep. You're not tired?" I squint my eyes at him in shock.

"Not right now. Besides, I'll take a huge nap when you're off to school." He says.

"You should invest in a job, 'Seung. All you do is sleep and eat." I snort.

"Shut up." Heeseung deadpans.

"Oh! Isn't Jungwon coming over? So that you guys can walk to school together?" He brings up, looking at me with interest. "Sunghoon and Jungwon reminded me earlier."

"Yeah." I nod my head in response. "Why would they feel the need to tell you?" I raise my eyebrows, intrigued.

"I don't know. Maybe because you're my little sister and he's one of my best friends, dumb ass?" He sticks his tongue out at me childishly.

I glare at him and he chuckles.

"Make sure you be nice to him. I know you hold grudges against him, but he just came back." He scolds me. "He's one of the youngest in our group. Take good care of him."

I roll my eyes. "I know, I know. Don't worry." I reply.

I finish my yogurt and strawberries and I throw away the empty yogurt container, washing the plate I used to put the strawberries on by the sink. Once finished, I went back up to my room. I quickly changed into my school uniform and put on a zip-up sweater over.

I put on some white knee-high socks and grabbed my backpack, putting in all of the things I needed inside; text books, my pencil case, notebooks, and some personal things such as lipstick, lotion, hand sanitizer, my train card, my wallet, and my phone. I walked back downstairs, wearing my maroon-colored backpack around my shoulders.

By the time I was done getting ready, Jungwon arrived to my house just in time. As I was putting on my black Vans, the door bell rings. Heeseung opened the door for him since I was occupied with lacing and tying my shoes.

"Hyung! Good morning." I hear Jungwon's voice.

I finish lacing my shoes and I look up to see Jungwon wearing the school uniform but for males. Over his uniform he also had on an oversized light baby blue sweater, and he carried a black backpack over his shoulders. His hair was a bit messy and wavy at the same time, probably just from his sleep.

"Good morning, Jungwon." Heeseung greets him back.

Jungwon and I make eye contact but quickly look away from each other.

"Have a good day at school, guys." my brother says to us. "Good luck on your first day, Jungwon."

"Thanks, hyung!" Jungwon flashes his dimple.

Heeseung escorted Jungwon and I outside, closing the front door after we stepped foot outside.

Joined by the awkward silence and small conversation, Jungwon and I were off to the bus stop.