first love ⁀➷ y.jw ✓

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I wipe my tears immediately once I hear the door bell ring. Making sure that it wasn't obvious I was crying, I quickly place the last shirt inside the dresser, then I head downstairs to answer the door.

Opening the door, my heart froze once I saw that it was Jungwon.

It was really him, standing right in front me.

Making eye contact, I quickly break it as I felt panicked. We haven't looked at each other in a week, and I didn't know how to feel about this.

What's he doing here?

I clear my throat, cursing at myself in my mind not to tear up.

"Heeseung's not home. He's with Sunghoon and Jay." I speak up.

He looks at me with sad, but awkward eyes.

"I'm not... I'm not here for him." He mutters.

"Then... what are you doing here?" I fake a small giggle.

"I need to talk to you, Hyewon."

I feel goosebumps on my arms from hearing him say my name after what felt like so long.

"Okay..." my voice trails off, as I hesitate.

"Come in." I move out of the way for him to come in.

He walks inside, taking his shoes off. We awkwardly and silently sit down across from each other in the living room.

"Do you, um.. do you want something to drink?" I ask him.

"No," he shakes his head. "It's okay."

"What did you want to talk to me about?" I ask.

He sadly looks down at the coffee table, obviously hesitating to speak. His mouth opens to talk, but then it closes, not a word coming out his mouth. Finally looking back up at me after a long pause, he speaks up.

"Have you been doing well?" He avoids whatever he needs to say by making small conversation.

"I've been okay. And you?"

"I've been... okay, as well." He mumbles.

Silence fills up the room, the two of us finding something to look at, anything other than each other. I felt my heart beat faster and faster as the silence continued.

"Are you..." he starts.

"Are you and Jake hyung a thing, now?"

I feel bewildered as he asks me this.

"No. We're not. We're just friends." I answer simply.

"Are you sure? He seems to really like you," he frowns a little.

"It's okay if you guys are a thing."

"We aren't together. I just said we aren't." I shake my head, feeling a little irritated.

"Are you sure? Every time you walk into the room, his eyes light up.." he murmurs.

"We've been getting closer, but it's nothing more than platonically."

"Are you only here to ask me if I'm with Jake?" I frown.

"It shouldn't matter to you. What's your point?" I look at him sternly.

"If you seriously came here just to interrogate me about who I associate with, please just leave already. Jake and I are just friends and I'm sure he agrees." I finish.

"It doesn't look like you guys are just friends. I saw you guys at K hyung's party. How close you guys were to each other. I saw everything, and you're telling me you guys are just friends?" His eyes become sharp and cold.

"I wasn't even sober, Jungwon!" My voice raises a little.

"Oh really? Because I heard that you remembered everything you did with him at the party."

"It's none of your business what I do. For the last time, Jake and I are just friends." I say.

Arguing, we both stand up, shouting at each other in anger.

"He's my best friend, Hyewon! How isn't it any of my business? He's my best friend and you're fooling around with him. Is that the kind of person you are?" He looks at me with angry eyes; anger plastered all over his face.

"You had a thing with me, now it seems like you're going to my best friend, next. Are you, Hyewon? Huh?!" He yells angrily, making me flinch.

Looking at the ground, tears can't help but escape.

"It shouldn't matter to you," I whisper.

"You're the one who left." I look up at him with tears rolling down my cheeks.

His angry, sharp, cold eyes now become softer and warmer. His expression softens once he sees me crying.

He stands there, looking at me with regretful eyes.