first love ⁀➷ y.jw ✓

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"You're gonna be my girlfriend, Hyewon.

I promise!"

"I WANT to be with you, yes. You'll be my girlfriend.

Don't worry, Hyewon."

Liar.

-

It's been three days into spring break and three days since I've seen Jungwon. He hasn't answered my calls, texts, or voicemails; he hasn't contacted me once whatsoever. The last time I heard from him was the day he slept over my house and left the next day. After that, I haven't heard a single thing from him.

I was growing really worried. The guys didn't know what was going on, either; none of them have seen him, or so what I've been told. I tried to stay calm and not freak out, but I couldn't help but worry.

He's been active on Instagram a lot. He hasn't texted or called me back, but he's been on his social medias and that's been bothering me.

Is he ignoring me on purpose?

Is he mad at me?

Angry?

Upset?

The guys were also being distant with me. They weren't their usual selves, aside from my brother. I tried to ask Jay if he knows where Jungwon has been and if he's okay, but Jay awkwardly brushed it off just like the other guys when I came to them about it.

Even Sunghoon.

Though, whenever I tried to talk to Sunghoon, he looked the most guilty. I could tell he was trying his best to hide his emotions when talking to me about Jungwon, but guilt was plastered all over his face. Guilt, sadness, sympathy.

I have always went to Sunghoon whenever I needed advice or help about Jungwon, since he's the most experienced with girls; he has his own girlfriend and they're in a happy relationship. I thought that he would help me out, but this time, he brushed me off. He's always willing to help me when it came to Jungwon. He was always so happy to help me, what happened?

Even my own brother seems to be hiding something from me along with the other guys.

My own brother.

I left the younger guys out of it because I didn't want them to get involved.

I know that they're all best friends, but I know for a fact they notice how anxious I am. But they're still avoiding me.

I'm so confused, I have no idea what's going on.

Is Jungwon really ignoring me?

Did I say, or do something to upset him? Clearly the guys know what's up, but they won't tell me. They're hiding it from me and it's been aggravating me. They know what Jungwon and I have going on together, and they know that Jungwon suddenly started to avoid me out of nowhere and it's been THREE days now. Yet, they're still hiding something from me.

The anxiety was growing more and more inside of me and I couldn't find a way to cope with it. I tried to occupy myself and distract myself by hanging out with the girls, and that solution seemed the best for now.

-

I currently was over Minju's house with Yeji. I was on her bed, my head rested on Yeji's lap while I was sadly and quietly thinking about Jungwon.

Still not a thing back from him.

"That jerk. He's ignoring you on purpose, I just know it." Minju notices how upset I look.

"The least he can do is tell you what's wrong. It's been three days and he seriously hasn't said a thing to you? You haven't seen him ever since?" Yeji frowns.

I gulp, shaking my head softly, feeling a sharp pang in my heart from talking about him.

"I tried to ask my brother if he knows what's wrong. He's avoiding every question I ask. Something is definitely wrong." Minju sighs frustratedly.

"Same with me! I thought that Sunghoon would be the most helpful because he has a girlfriend and he knows how relationships work, but he also keeps avoiding me. Every time I try to ask him if he knows anything, he brushes me away." Yeji adds.

I don't say a word, keeping silent listening to the girls add their piece of mind.

"This Jungwon jerk, seriously. You finally learn how to trust guys again, especially HIM, yet he pulls this shit? I'm gonna beat his ass if I ever see him." Minju scoffs, sounding really upset for me.

"I'm in with you, unnie! Hyewon does not deserve this. That dumb ass, ugh.... I'm so mad." Yeji huffs.

I check my phone to see if Jungwon could have texted or called me; my phone was on Do Not Disturb, so I found myself checking my phone every five minutes.

As expected, no text or call back.

I decided to go on Instagram and check Jungwon's profile to see if he's posted anything,

And my heart absolutely broke.

He deleted all of the photos of us together.

On his feed, on his story highlights,

Everything.

I break out into tears, throwing my phone across the room in anger. The girls freeze up and look at me with concern and shock, immediately comforting me. I cover my face with my hands, sobbing hard.

"What's wrong, Hyewon?" I hear Yeji's voice turn really sad.

"He.. he..." I say in between sobs.

"He... he deleted... all... our pictures and videos.. t-together..." I sob even harder.

"No fucking way. Did he really do that? Stop lying, Hyewon. No way." Minju shakes her head, visibly getting more angry for me.

I wipe my tears and get up, grabbing my things.

"I'm gonna go home. I feel sick." I sniff.

"Hyewon. Stay here for a little. So we know you'll be okay." Yeji frowns more.

"I can't. I want to get into bed."

Ignoring the rest of what they said, I hurriedly stormed out of Minju's house with tears streaming down my face. Getting into my car, I quickly drive off, going home.