Alone and Unwanted (No longer writing)

Month 2 Day 8

I hate my life is all I have to say. 

Right now, I am in a world where I am a nobody. I'm a weak, teenage mother. I have no money, no job, nothing. 

I got rejected by my mate and now he's with someone else. Nate is with Nichole. 

What else? Oh yeah, I have Jarod and Rennard beating me almost everyday. I let them. They said it was either me or Malena. I told them me. She doesn't deserve to be hit like I am. 

My parents left me. Of course, already mentioned that before. I was a mistake to them. 

They had called Koda a few days ago. I overheard and they said they loved him and would like to visit. 

I'm honestly not glad about that. I don't want to see them right now. Not when I'm going threw all this crap right now. 

Jarod had gave me a really bad black eye a few days ago. The pack members laugh when they see me. I don't care. I'm use to it. 

The Luna keeps asking me about the black eye. I tell her that I fell. Of course,she doesn't believe me. She asks if Jarod did it. I shook my head at her and I walked out of her office. 

I don't want the Luna talking to me right now. I don't want anyone to talk to me. Not even Koda. 

I just want to be left alone.  

After I make the pack members dinner, I take a knife and head to my room. 

I made a cut on my wrist. I hate doing this, but it makes me feel so much better. 

Well, you can call me emo now. 

Y'all don't get it. 

My life is terrible right now. 

No one loves me. No one cares for me. 

I'm a nobody. 

I'm ugly and hideous and all the other cruel things the females tell me. 

I'm weak and not at all strong. 

I'm the worst mother. I'm not giving Malena the life she deserves. Her dad doesn't see her anymore. 

I don't want her to have my life. 

If only I could start over somehow. 

But, that'll never happen. 

I set Malena in her small crib. 

I get into my poor excuse of a bed and try to go to sleep. 

Of course, I can't. 

I think of everything. 

Especially, the past. My parents, Nate, Jarod, Rennard, 

Everyone. 

I would say I'm officially  alone, 

And unwanted. 

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Poor Tavern. She really hates life right now. I feel sorry for her. Anyway, thanks to everyone who reads and likes my story. I appreciate it so much. Love y'all! And sorry it's not that long. It's midnight for me and I am super tired. Hope y'all like it! Not published! And don't be afraid to:

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