I Don't Love Him!! (ChiLumi) (Genshin)

Chapter 10: I Don't Love Him!!

Lumine POV:

I sat on my bed, flipping through the images I'd taken with Childe. We were smiling or just being silly in every picture. I was smiling. It had become such a foreign thing to me that I'd almost forgotten how to smile. What was this strange feeling he made me feel? Like I wanted to rely on him, and bask in his sunlight? I'd always been covered in the shadows of night, and he'd suddenly enveloped me in a warm blanket of light and warmth. What was he making me feel?

I was supposed to be the villain. The one who shouldn't smile. The one who didn't deserve anything. Then why did he make me feel like I did? He stopped my tears and melted the glaciers that had been ceaselessly freezing my heart and brewing a storm inside of me. I didn't feel like I wanted to die anymore. I wanted to be with him. I wanted to see him smile, and hear his enchanting laugh. I wanted him to keep speaking to me, with that melodious voice of his. I blushed as an image of me kissing him came up in my mind. What exactly was this? I couldn't be in love with him. No way. I laughed away the thought. I glanced at his picture again and pressed the star on the top right corner to add it to my favourites. It was then that I realised I'd been gazing at that photo for way too long. I blushed and shook my head furiously.

There's no way I love him! I don't love him!! Not a bit!

I calmed my heart down and buried my face in my bedsheets, pulling the blankets over myself, with the phone lying on my pillow. 

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The next morning, I headed to school as usual and walked over to my seat. I saw Childe sitting there and blushed furiously, avoiding looking at him as I sat down with my head to the other side. He seemed to notice me acting strangely.

"Whats up, ojou-chan? Why're you sitting with your face turned away strangely like that?" he asked, chuckling. Did I ever mention how much my heart ran when he chuckled? Wait, was I really falling for this weirdo?

"N-nothing!" I stuttered. Oh god, I stuttered. I'd never stuttered in my entire life. What. Exactly. Was. Wrong. With. Me. Ughh. Childe held a hand on my chin and whipped me around to face him. My blush deepened as my eyes locked with his dark, ocean blue eyes. He chuckled again.

"Ojou-chan, do you like me or something?" he asked. I hammered a fist on his head, pushing him away while getting slightly annoyed. It was then that I realised. There was something wrong with his tone today. What had happened to him?

"Idiot. I don't like you. I wouldn't fall for you." I spoke, but every time I said this, I felt less sure that I didn't like him. What had happened to the storm in my heart? The mountain of rocks that couldn't be moved? Where was my guilt?

"I see." he said in a voice that was weary, maybe even slightly depressed. I put a hand on his shoulder, which made him turn towards me. His eyes were filled with a deep sorrow that I couldn't put into words, and held no glint of light. I'd been in deep sorrow myself, and had had days where I'd wanted to just end it all. But the look in his eyes at this moment - it scared me.

"Are you alright?" I asked, trying to assure myself in my mind that he was okay. He smiled in a way that reflected what was in his heart. Sorrow.

"I'm fine, ojou-chan." he muttered. And I knew that was a lie.

A/N: Sorry for late update and short chapter y'all I got hws to do and a smol test tomorrow so sorryyy. This story is gonna end fast, and the next two arcs will prolly be the last ones. The story is 70% completed with the rest being
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A beach episode + dramatic confession and then finally final arc! Stay tuned!