𝗜𝗗𝗢𝗟 𝗟𝗜𝗙𝗘 #02 - 𝘽𝙀𝙏𝙒𝙀𝙀𝙉 𝙏𝙒𝙊 𝙅𝙨 ( 𝐽𝑎𝑒ℎ𝑦𝑢𝑛, 𝐽𝑜ℎ𝑛𝑛𝑦)

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Third Person's POV

Everything was just hitting hard in Hyejin's head as she sat herself in pure devastation in the corner of her room. Cans of beers and bottles of soju were lying empty all over the floor while she stressfully ruffled her hair for the nth time of the day.

Now that she was alone, Hyejin had a clearer vision of what was happening to her right now. She was fucking mad of herself for hitting on two bestfriends at the same time.

She kinda regretting that she learned romantic things. Now she's fucked up.

Hyejin felt so torn on what was happening. God knew how bad she wanted to have someone to listen to her but she knew it would be hard to find someone that would understand her before judging.

First of all, they would surely think she was being ridiculous! Who would even want to understand a cheater's reasoning?

Oh yeah, Johnny kissed his ex but Hyejin was still at the bigger fault. She knew it! Instead of talking it out with him, she let herself be comforted by other.

That one night mistake with her boyfriend's bestfriend turned into uncontrollably countless night they shared together.

She wasn't Jaehyun's girlfriend but would it be too much if she tell him she didn't want Jaehyun to date any other girl? Would it be too much to ask even though she couldn't give him the label that he had been wanting?

It sounded so selfish but yeah, she wanted it to be that way.

It hit her hard when that thought came to her. From going to Jaehyun only because of the benefits to catching feelings.

No, she wasn't sure yet but there were possibilities of it.

And to make things more complicated, she didn't want Jaehyun to date other and she also didn't want to let go Johnny.

Crazy...it fucking was but things went more crazier whenever she ask herself to let one of them go and her answer was always none.

Was it really possible to fall in love with two people at the same time?

Johnny...

He was there even at her worst.  He stayed, he was there all the time she needed him despite being the busy and famous idol. He was never absent and never missed his boyfriend duties, he was that perfect boyfriend that girls would die for and yet, he chose her.

And Jaehyun...

Who was also treating her gently and making her feel all these feelings she was unaware of before. He had been taking care of her, sending her signs and confusions, he was always open about his feelings and he never done anything to make her eyes water.

It was sending her confusion. Ending everything with Jaehyun was just...a hard thing to do and when thinking about ending it with Johnny, it was really painful. 

Was she just being blinded by the pleasure that Jaehyun had given her or just purely fooled by infatuation?

Would she sacrifice her long and lovely and almost a perfect relationship with Johnny over him? She didn't know! Her mind was blown away!

Johnny was her first love, first everything, she was more deeply in love with him. Hyejin was aware that the longer it was taking, the deeper the wound that Johnny would get in the end.

There were no dirty secrets that were remained kept, time would come tharall of her dirty lies would be unleashed...she took awareness of it and by that time, she just wished she had finally ended things between her and Jaehyun.