𝗜𝗗𝗢𝗟 𝗟𝗜𝗙𝗘 #02 - 𝘽𝙀𝙏𝙒𝙀𝙀𝙉 𝙏𝙒𝙊 𝙅𝙨 ( 𝐽𝑎𝑒ℎ𝑦𝑢𝑛, 𝐽𝑜ℎ𝑛𝑛𝑦)

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Third Person's POV

Hyejin was silently walking in the hallway behind Johnny. Her eyes were staring on his back trying to study him.

There was a sudden change in Johnny's mood again and it was a puzzle to Hyejin. It didn't seem right and convincing knowing how intense that situation was in the café while ago.

"You sure everything's alright John?" Soon she asked after they arrived inside his house.

He nodded with an assuring smile and it was creeping her out. Bubbly and dork all of a sudden? What happened during those times when she was waiting in the car?

"No worries babe. Don't worry! He replied and changed into his slippers.

Hyejin stayed silent for a minute and made her way to the kitchen to get something to drink. There was a train of thoughts inside her head, carefully planning how she would explain everything to Johnny.

She didn't wanna live spitting lies anymore. She wanted to be honest.

After calming herself, she walked around the house and spotted Johnny standing in front if the mirror. He was staring outside and thinking deep.

"John." She called carefully. "Won't you ask anything to me? You said you want my explanation." She brought up as she walked closer to his spot.

She was thinking that maybe that was the right time to talk it out, to break up with him.

No more hide and seek. No more games that would hurt all of them. She wanted to stop hurting Johnny and most importantly, she didn't wanna leave Jaehyun to keep on waiting for her.

It was clear to her now. She wanted to be with Jaehyun...only with him.

"John---"

"Ah about that..." He paused and slid his hands inside his pockets. Head facing the floor, unable to face her. He was feeling too weak to look her in the eyes. "Let's not talk about it." Johnny's eyes were shut tight as he felt a stinging pain inside his chest.

"No...we need to talk about it."

"No we don't---"

"For your fucking sake hear me out! This is the best for you! I want us to talk about it! Why are you being like this? Can't you see? I cheated... I'm cheating!!" Her voice echoed inside the leaving room and a deafening silence followed.

Both were looking at each other with pain in their eyes.

His chest moved up and down. He was starting to breathe heavily, trying to suppress all the feelings haunting him inside. "I know...I know..." With a slight nod, he sighed lifelessly.

"And I don't give a fuck Hyejin. I don't care whoever you cheated me with. It doesn't matter to me. I can forget what happened. You don't have to say sorry you're already forgiven." Lies. He was giving a fuck. He cared. It did matter. That shit was hella consuming his sanity but to keep her, he was more willing to abandon his own feelings, his worth.

Hyejin was out of words. So he didn't think it was really Jaehyun? Did Jaehyun denied them to him? Whatever it was, it was hard to process Johnny right now. She couldn't believe him! He caught her off guard and there he was acting as if it was nothing???

"W-what? Why are saying that? It's not all about that. We have a lot to talk about! Let me talk about us...please." She blocked his way with her begging voice and eyes.

All she wanted to do was to end everything and nothing felt more miserable for Johnny seeing how eager she was to do that.

Both of them were under desperation but with different reasons. While he was desperate to save them, she was desperate to break up. Both were hurting but Johnny was suffering more. He felt more worse.