Would you stay or leave me?

Chapter 23

[Jenna]
It's been a week since I was relieved from the hospital. I feel the stress of not knowing what actually happened around me. My mind is as blank as an empty paper. I can't remember anything, my past, present and what actually happened months or maybe years ago. But I do remember some of my childhood and my family,after that everything starts to get blurry.

I saw that many people were affected by my comatose state, I'm supposed to be grateful but how can I be grateful when I can't remember anything or even a slightest hint of them in the gallery of my brain excluding my family members. It's seems weird that I can remember my parents and my sister once seeing the sight of them but couldn't remember anyone else.

Standing in front of the mirror wearing only my panties and bra looking at my figure in the mirror I can't believe the person standing there is me. Raising my arm seeing the flabbiness hanging like a cloth that doubles the size of my arm,not just my arms but every part if my body is covered by fats.

Scanning myself feeling the insecurities eating me up,swallowing me up not leaving any trace of confidence. Giving up I walk to my closet seeing every clothing that I have is all baggy clothes or jeans. Not a single dress or even a skirt.

Knowing that I probably will never remember about my past I need to change everything. I don't know what the old Jenna would think but I think it's time to change everything.

I don't wanna feel so disgusted with myself every time I look into the mirror. I wanna be that person that has confidence of her own body and not be known for the girl that has no confidence in herself.

From today onwards I will go jog around the park for few hours and eat less fatty food. If I'm gone start a new life I gotta move along from the past.

Even though I really want to know what happened in the past but it seems that my brain won't let me as if telling me that it's not worth to remember things that would break me.

Deciding to wear a hoodie and jeans feeling that it's the only things that looks nice in my closet. Walking out of my room and being welcomed with a pleasant smell that came from the kitchen.

I walked to the kitchen stool and inhaled the smell of glorious food being cooked by my dearly beloved best friend. Looking at her figure she seems to be focusing on her cooking like it's the most important thing in the world. She seems to have a knack in cooking.

Feeling awkward to just stand there I cleared my throat and she turn to look at me giving me a smile.

"Hey, today I made your favourite" I just nodded as a reply but inside I'm screaming 'hallelujah'

"I'll go ready the stuff" I said backing away which she replied with an ok.

Before eating we prayed to thank The Lord for the exquisite food that is given to us on the table. Taking a bite of the chicken savouring the taste and feeling the sweet sensation forming in my taste buds.

Eating the food she cooked always brings a familiar sensation to my taste buds. A familiarity that made me feel like I've eaten her food for a long time.

While eating our food we had small talks about work and stuffs. Most of the time she would bring up about Justin,he seems like a nice guy but I feel like there's something missing. A puzzle that's missing and has to be found to make me feel whole again. I don't know what that puzzle is but when I asked my parents,my sister,Abigail and Justin they would say that I'm just being paranoid.

But deep down inside of me, I could feel that they know something that I don't. Feeling weird and wondering what are they hiding from me?What is it that's so bad that they couldn't tell me? Deciding that I'll let it flow, I'm sure they'll tell me when it's time.
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A/N
So what do you all thing? So I wanna clear the confusion guys about Jenna thinking that she's fat. Actually she's not fat as in obese she's just very insecure with her body. She's very tall and kinda big sized but not obese ok.
So the next chapter I will be about..... eh,not gonna tell you guys😂 just wait for the next update. Don't worry,I'll update soon ok. Since it's the holidays🎊🎉 whoopee