Would you stay or leave me?

Chapter 32:The sad past

[Jenna]
Playing with my hands,feeling my heart beat at each ticking moment. Get your head straight,relax. It's just him,you've talked to him before. Why suddenly so nervous. Yeah I'm right,take deep calming breaths Jenna. When he comes just say it out and get it over with.

Then seeing Justin walk in the restaurant his eyes looking around the place then he saw me and our eyes just stare at each other. I feel a little tingly feeling inside of me. He walked over to the table and sat down ordering a drink and a food. We sat there silently looking everywhere but not at each other. My head is telling me to just tell him or start a conversation. I'm contemplating whether I should go straight to the point or just start with the orphanage thing.

Justin cleared his throat trying to ease the awkwardness "So how was your day today?" I am very grateful that he tries to find something to talk about. It's an opportunity to talk about the orphanage.

"It was great. Actually I went to an orphanage" I said looking into his eyes.

"Really? Wow" stop smiling

"Yeah" then the waitress came over an place Justin's drink on the table. He starts to sip on his drink and I continued "The place is called Sacred Heart" after saying the name of the place he starts to choke on his water,his eyes so wide like it's about to pop out.

I quickly grabbed the napkin on the table and pass it to him. After his coughing subsided he wiped his mouth.

"I'm really sorry about that. You were saying?"

"I saw your picture on the walls" I said finally letting the bomb drop. He was quiet and didn't seem to be faze my this. In fact he seems pretty cool about it,like it's not much of a big deal.

"Yeah I'm an orphan" he said after a few seconds of silent.

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"There's not much to tell about me. I don't have an important life."

"Well to me your important. You could have at least told me that you have a bad past. I mean I thought we wouldn't keep any secret from each other?" My expression slowly changing from normal to rage. But not those type of angry rage. It's more like an annoyance towards myself that I don't try to care about him.

"It's nothing actually. It's no big deal" he said trying to calm me

"How can it not be a big deal? Mrs Eleanor told me that you had a bad past" I said deadpanned "I wanna know what happened?" My voice sounding so demanding. Deep down I know that he has the right to not tell me. But I feel like I need to know something about him. I don't wanna be the girl that's always being lied to that everything is ok when it's really not. "Sadness is meant to be shared together"

He sighed and ran his hand through his hair making it a slight bit messy,which makes him even more attractive "My dad was a drug dealer. My mum is just a normal housewife with a dream of having a happy life with a happy family. At first when I realise my dad was a drug dealer I was shocked so I just let it go,because he's still the same dad that's always been there for me. But one day I also found out that he's a drug addict too" his face was showing rage. His brows knitted together,I wish I could go over and help him smooth his eyebrows. "One day, I saw my dad forcing my mum to take drugs. She was tied on the bed so helpless and I had to watch my dad put drugs inside of her. I didn't know what to do, I tried asking my dad to stop but he wouldn't listen. After putting the drugs inside of her,the drugs took over her. My dad invited some of his drug addict friends. I saw them going inside the room with my mother inside and all of them raped her at once. All five people doing those things to her,a helpless woman who wanted nothing but to live a normal and happy life. Ever since that incident my mum suicide and my dad was put to jail with me all alone. I would always wake up at the middle of the night the sweating and crying. I have insomnia and it's so hard for me to let it go" tears were starting to form around his eyes. But his holding it in. I stood up and pull the chair to sit beside him putting my hands on he's hands. Squeezing it tightly,a way of telling him that it's ok.

He squeezed my hand back,I took some tissues from my purse and help wipe the tears that's falling unknowingly from his eyes. The waitress came to our table and I put my chair back to my original position facing Justin. But our hands still attached together. Both of us eating our food quietly,only the sound of the spoon on fork could be heard.

In my head I'm thinking about everything he told me. My heart goes to that man sitting in front of me right now. I didn't know he had to go through such a past. Now I am even more determined to help mend his heart make him into a better person. I want to keep him strong.

After finishing our dinner we stood beside my car. Just standing there for a few seconds until Justin cleared his throat "I had a great time today,except for the crying part. Gosh that was pretty embarrassing" he said chuckling and I followed suit "I feel like a wuss"

"No,don't feel like that" I grabbed his face and make them face me "your such an awesome and brave guy to be able to tell me such horrible past. If it was me,i would've suicide too. Your so strong for living until now. I mean look at you,your a successor."

He grabbed my hands and pull me for a hug. I hugged him back smelling his scent. "If only you were mine" he whispers to my ears.

My spine shivers when he said that, I could feel my hormones escalating for no reasons. I let go and look at him,his face was taken aback by my rejection.

"What if I'm really yours?" He seemed pretty confused at first

"What do you mean? I don't get it?" I don't know how to tell him in words. So I just grabbed in face and smash my lips into his face. He seemed to be stuck for awhile then his lips starts to move together.

When we pull apart and lean our foreheads on each other,both of our chest heaving up and down. Our breaths mixing together. My face getting redder each seconds. I can't believe I did that. I didn't know where I got that courage from.

"So is that a yes?" I don't know whether to hit him or kiss him again. It's like pretty obvious what the answer is,but just to make him feel the pressure I just said yes.

He was smiling so big and he starts to chuckle. Then he turn around and screamed "SHE SAID YES!!!!" I laughed at his behaviour. He turn back around and swoop me off my feet crashing our lips together once again. I could do this all day long.
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I took my shoes off closing the door behind me. Remembering back to when Justin kissed me just now,my cheeks slowly turns red. My heart beating rapidly.

This day had been quite an adventure,from shock to sadness then to happiness. Life is just so surprising.

"So.." Abbygale said from the living room causing me to jump.

"Oh gosh" I said putting my hands on my chest to calm my heart "you scared me I thought you went to sleep."

"I was waiting up for you" I walk over to the living room to see Abbygale on her pj's and her hair in a bun. She turns to look at me "where have you been all day long eh?" Thinking back to what I did today made my cheeks go even redder.

"Nothing" I said trying to hide the tomato face

"Oh no,your hiding something from me. Spit it out girl,come on say it out" Abby slowly stood up walking over to me.

"Really there's nothing"

"Oh really?" She said raising one eyebrow at me.

"It's just that me and Justin are official" Her mischievous face turns to a wide smile

"OMG!! This is such a good news. I just can't. Tell me what happened from the start till the end" she dragged my hands to sit on the couch with her.

I told her everything about what happened except for the part about Justin's past. I think that's a really private part of him that shouldn't be exposed.

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