Would you stay or leave me?

Chapter 25: Gone

''Did you know constellations can be used to determined direction and location?'' His voice so clear and soothing as I stared at the blanket of dark blue sprinkled with white glitters.

''Yeah, I know, isn't it amazing?'' I sighed, admiring the stars shining above us.

''Actually I have a constellation just beside me.'' His voice laced with emotion, I completely froze hearing how sincere his voice sounds, is he talking about me? I turn to look into his eyes that was filled with sincerity.

''You showed me so many incredible things,the time we made eye contact your eyes make me so breathless . If I have to choose between you and the star, I choose you.''

Suddenly I was awaken from my dream,because of the alarm blaring on my bedside. I close the alarm and just sat there for awhile thinking why was that dream so familiar? I feel like the scenery from my dream has happened before and the person is someone that I know. But I couldn't seem to recall who he is, I couldn't even remember how he looked like.

Deciding that there's no point sitting down and thinking about the dream. I stood up and went inside the bathroom to take a cool shower. After showering I wore something suitable for jogging. bringing along my iPod with me.

Going down the stairs seeing the whole atmosphere of the living room and kitchen so quite. I guess my parents are already asleep. My sister went back to her house almost midnight. I wish she could stay but she has a husband waiting for her at home.

Grabbing my keys and locked the door,standing outside the door and inhaling the morning air. The sun haven't come out yet. But you could see that it's gonna come up slowly by looking at the clear blue sky with soft cotton clouds.

I put on a suitable song for jogging, putting the iPod in my pocket and start to jog to the park.
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Finn's POV
Sitting inside my car wondering where Jenna could've been. I went to her company but couldn't find any sight of her.

Feeling angry at me for losing someone so important to me. I miss her scent, her giddy attitude. I wish that I could find her right now. The only thing I can do right now is just wonder how she's doing. Does she miss me as much as I miss her? Does she still hate me? Does she still love me?

I was so caught up with my work and I was so unsure about so many things until I did all that. I really didn't wanna do it. I'm trying to change into a better person now. So that one day Jenna will be able to forgive me. But if she doesn't I understand,who would want to forgive an asshole like me. I knew that she was so fragile,so good to be true the moment I bumped into her. But now she's gone out of sight.

Driving home with my head thinking back to the times when we were still together being happy with our lives. Seeing images of her smile and remembering our kiss. I can't believe I let something to important to me slipped out of my life.

Opening the door seeing the house so empty. It's no longer a home that's filled with her cooking, her scent,her laughter,her crying whenever she watched a sad movie and all those sweet memories of her that's trapped in my head.

Walking up the the room, seeing so many pictures of her gone. Just only one picture of her left. That picture was candid picture taken from her sister. I hold the framed and stare at both of us smiling and looking into each other.

Slowly walking to the bed with the picture frame in my hands and I took the only thing she forgot to take with her that is her favourite turquoise scarf. Falling on the bed and curling myself into a ball with the scarf and pictures on my hands. Inhaling on the scarf I could still smell her scent on the scarf. These two are the only things left I have of her.

Suddenly I could hear myself whimper feeling the tears coming out of my eyes. It hurts to lose someone that I love. I guess it must've been even more painful for her to go through those days without me. I know that I've never been there for her whenever she needed me most. I always wonder how she could cope with all those things in life. I guess I never asked her how she's doing.

I wished that I could turn back time and change my ways. I wish there is a way for both of us to get back together. I wish that all this never happened. Cause every single of my day without her makes me feel that I should just die right now. I can't live without her and that's the facts. I wish there's a way for me to stop her from walking away.