Would you stay or leave me?

Chapter 30: Cheesiness

Closing the door behind me,my whole body leaning on the door my legs getting all wobbly. I slowly fall to my knees feeling my heart beat faster. Justin's question kept running around my head. It was really nice of him to give me some space to think about it. But now I don't know what to say,my mind is giving a different answer from my heart. I have such a huge dilemma on this.

"You home already?" Hearing Abigail footsteps shuffling from the living room. She come to the door and was shocked to see me sitting on the door step. She ran to my side and slowly lifts me up "my goodness are you ok? Did Justin do something bad to you?"

"No he didn't do anything bad to me. But he did ask me a mind blowing question" I sighed looking down

"What is it?" creases forming around her forehead

"He asked me to be his girlfriend! Oh gosh do you know how hard was it for me to talk to him? I hate myself so much for not being able to tell him. I just didn't know what to say at the moment,it was too sudden for me"

"What do you mean it's too sudden? He was waiting for you for about few years now. He was the one worrying his ass off when you were on the hospital bed. If I were you I would've said yes in no time"

"I want you to give me support not bombard me back with remarks lady" glaring at her

"Come let's sit and we'll talk about it" leading me to the living room.

"Ok tell me the whole story. Don't leave anything behind ok" she said. Then I told him how the dinner went and how awkward it was then to is walking around in the park and how I almost kissed him. Abigail was a good listener she stayed quiet the whole time but did gush a few times when I said about how sweet Justin is.

After finishing my whole story she smacked me on the arm real hard. I cried out in pain and massaged the spot where she hit me.

"Why'd you do that for?" She glared at me

"You should have said yes when he asked you to be his girlfriend dummy"

"Well I didn't know what to say at that moment ok. I was like a deer stucked by headlights " I said sounding defensively.

"Ok. The big question is do you like him?" She asked raising her perfectly shaved eyebrows at me.

"I don't know" sounding defeated "I'm not sure. I mean he sometimes gives me butterfly when I'm around him. His very attractive and sweet"

"What's stopping you?"

"I really don't know to be honest" actually I do know but I just didn't want to tell her.

The moment Justin confessed to me,my mind went back to the divorced paper I found earlier. Sure it was the past but I wanna know what happened? Did it really hurt me that bad? I was wondering would my relationship with Justin turn out like that? There was no questioning if I liked Justin back,if course I do. But I'm just scared to fall and no one to catch me. I hated myself for being so vulnerable but I'm still a girl. I have feelings too,its normal for me to like someone and to be scared of trying new things.

"Alright then" Abigail clasp her hands together "why don't you get some sleep and think about it will you? I want you to be happy ok. Think real hard about this" she said giving me a smile. I nodded and went to get ready for sleep.

Taking of my dress and wearing my pj's I grabbed my phone and texted Finn. We've been talking to each other lately,I haven't really told anyone about him yet. I don't know why but I just feel that I should just keep this a secret for awhile.

Hey :) you asleep yet? -J

Nope. Why? Missed me? ;) -F

I couldn't help but gush at his message. it's just harmless flirting right. He's such a sweet person,very good looking if I may add.

Maybe... What are you doing now? -J

Laying on bed thinking about you. You? -F

I'm practically squirming on the bed at his cheesy words. I feel all the stress and the drama back then subsided from me. Talking to Finn sure can help ease my stress away. Justin is a sweet guy,I'm not sure if I really like him. I think I like him but I'm not sure if it's like like or more like a brotherly like. Emotion is a very confusing thing.

Are you flirting with me Mr. Anderson? -J

Maybe? -F

Now your mocking me aren't you Mr. Anderson. Now that's just cruel >:) -J

Now is it Ms. Harrison? -F

Yes, you hurt my heart -J

Did I? Shall I go over to your place and help kiss the pain away for you? -F

If you want ;) -J

I sure would like to. If only you would let me -F

Why is this boy making me fall for him so easy. I feel a tad but guilty,but I never promised to be Justin's girlfriend though.

I'm very confused :/ -J

Why? :( -F

A friend asked me to be his girlfriend. I don't know what to say to him. He said he'll wait for my answers. I'm not exactly sure about my feelings for him -J

After 2 hours he still haven't replied I decided it was time to off the lights and go to sleep. I'm guessing he must've fallen asleep or he's busy.

Just follow what your heart says darling. Whatever happens I'm always here to support you ;) -F
P.S. sorry for the late reply. I was busy

I'll try to sleep on it :) thanks for the advice :* anyways G'night -J

Ok G'night to you too :* get lots of rest and sweet dreams. Hope you dream of me tonight ;) cause I'll be dreaming of you every night -F

Stop with your cheesiness -J

I'll try. Even though I know you love it ;) -F

It's true,I do love his cheesiness. I closed my phone and fall asleep with a big goofy smile on my face. Slowly letting sleep take over and falling into wonderland.