Would you stay or leave me?

Chapter 39:Decision

The whole car ride my mind was elsewhere. The words that Finn said to me earlier kept replying in my head. I couldn't stop thinking about the words he said and I'm scared that he's right. What if Justin is dangerous to be around. He was pretty aggressive lately with the recent incident.

It did scare me a little when that side of him came on but he promised he wouldn't do it again and I guess I should give him a chance to prove it to me.

"So where to now?" Abigail asked

"Paige's house" I could see from the side of my vision that Abigail was staring at me like I I just told her I'm a lesbo. I didn't bother looking at her because my mind is battling on what i should say or do when I see that treacherous ex-bestfriend of mine. I'm not even sure if I'm still mad at her. There's just one way to find out and that is to see her again.

The moment we arrived at her house I feel like backing out but I know the sooner I get this over with the sooner everything is solved. There's no point in holding on to old grudges. Taking a deep breath I gave a firm knock and a few seconds later I hear someone yelling "Coming" and the sound of footsteps. Then the sound of the lock click and the door slowly opening showing a face that I haven't seen for so long.

When we made eye contact I could see her whole figure tensed up and the mug she was holding fell to the ground causing pieces of the glass to be scattered on the ground.

Like the friendship we once had.
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[Paige]
The moment I opened the door I could feel my body tensed up. The mug that was on my hand fell the the ground and a gasp escaped my mouth. The scattered glass on the floor didn't seem to be important for the moment because the person I've been feeling sorry for this long is standing at my doorstep starring at me with a straight face.

She's change so much since the last time I saw her. The sparks she once held in those eyes were fading. I guess this is all my fault. I've cause so much pain to her. She was staring at me then looking down at the shards of glass scattered on the floor.

Looking upon all the glass scattered on the floor I quickly picked it up and Jenna followed suit helping me to pick it up,which made me scream out and grabbed her wrist stopping her from picking them up "Err... no.. it's fine. I can do it myself"

She stare at me then stare at my hands holding her wrist,I quickly let go of her wrist. I could feel my heart beating faster as I quickly picked up the shards one by one.

"You know this reminds me of something" she said. I looked at her trying to understand what she meant "the shattered glass represents our friendship that you destroyed"

I was too numb and too ashamed to say anything. So I continued picking up the shards but Jenna stopped and stood up. I told her to sit down and wait for me to finish up the cleaning.

After picking the last piece of glass I went into the kitchen to grab something for us to drink.

As we say there quietly I could only hear the faint sound coming from the television.

"May I ask why are you here?" I finally speak out

"I think.... we need to have a talk about the incident" I was beyond shocked. I thought she lost her memory how can she know about the incident.

Unless I thought then it occurred that maybe Finn told her. I might give him a piece of my mind later when I see him.

"I'm sorry" was the only thing that blurted out from my mouth

"You think one word can change everything? You think it'll save my marriage that you broke? Or maybe it'll save our friendship?" I just sat there quietly. I deserve all this so I'm gonna suck it all in and let her talk. Maybe even let her slap me if she wants.

"I thought we were best friends. I trusted you with everything and over all the people I would have never expected you to betray me"

"I know it's all my fault and I'm so so sorry. I know that I can't seem to change anything but..."

"Shut up" she said cutting me off "I haven't finish talking" I stayed quiet letting her to continue.

"The reason I come here is not to lash at you for the past. I'm here to tell you that I've let go of the past. But... I'm not sure if I'm ready to forget or even forgive you yet. Guess it takes more strength and energy to forgive or forget"

By the time she finished talking a tear escaped from my eyes. Jenna stood up and came closer to help wipe the tears from my cheek. I look into her eyes and see the sincerity in them. She has really let go and I feel so relieved that I couldn't control myself.

"I understand.. I know it must've been hard to come see the person that you once trusted. I just hope that we'll be normal friends. I don't expect much because I know what I've done was unforgivable and I'm really glad that you chose to let go of the past. It's fine with me if you can't seem to forgive me now" I said letting it all out

"And I'm glad that I came here. Because now that everything is out.. I think maybe we can be acquaintance for now. Bye Paige" Jenna said and stood up to walk out of the door.

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A/N
Whoop whoop!! Hey guys :3 sorry for the long wait. I've been pretty busy and I don't know why I've been pretty tired lately so I didn't have time to update. I'll try to update frequently, but it's not a promise ok. Hope you guys enjoyed this chapter.

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-Vivian