Would you stay or leave me?

Chapter 29: Awkward

Sitting crossed legged on the floor rummaging through a box full if stuffs that's never been touched. There's some old stuff that I didn't even know I had. Then I came across a paper that's burned half leaving only few words to read. I look at it closely and realised that this is a divorced paper. Looking at the bottom I saw my own signature,but it didn't give much information about who was my ex-husband. My mind is going haywire. Santa Maria I was bloody married and nobody bothered to freaking tell me.

Feeling the rage inside me forming I didn't know whether I was mad at myself for not remembering such an important detail or why didn't anyone tell me. Why is the paper burned half,did I burn it myself or did someone tried to hide the evidence but didn't have time to throw it away. I was beyond mad I wanted to go down and confront Abigail but my conscious stopped me.

Brain:Hold on Jenna,lets not make rash decision without thinking it through.

Me:what's there to think about? They should have tell me. I mean I am a victim of amnesiac.

Brain:What if they did this to protect you? There has to be a great explanation. Look at the paper your holding forgoodness sake, it's a freaking divorced paper. Surely nothing good comes from that memory right?

Me:Fair point brain. You win I won't confront this I'll forget about all this.

Quickly putting the paper back underneath the box I put it under the bed. Feeling that it's like a bomb that's about to explode if I explore deeper into the box. I didn't want everything bad flooding back to me like the divorce thing. A knock from the door quickly brought me up on my feet. turning around to see Abigail's head peeking out if the door. Giving me a grin, she come in to sit on the edge of my patting beside her for me to sit. I did as I was told.

"How ya doing?" She wasn't looking at me but at the wall that I decorated with pictures that hanging by a thread and some clips. It's just few rows of pictures that's hanging by a thread and the other walls are covered by manilla card that I pasted with quotes and nice pictures. It's basically full or random pictures of me and some other things.

"I'm ok,I mean maybe I'll get my memories back,maybe I won't"

"But do you want to get your memories back?" She turn to look at me her face serious.

"Yes of course I do"

"But what if it's something that will hurt you?" Hah I knew there's a reason for why they hide something from me. I'm mentally grinning at myself right now.

I start to think about her question carefully wondering about it "it don't know" I said dumbfounded "it depends on how bad it is? I mean it's still a part of me right. I'll have to know sooner or later right" it sounded more like a question than a statement.

"Maybe your right" giving me a half smile that didn't reach her eyes. I could she was gonna tell me something but she's holding back "maybe when the time is right you'll know somethings" she started to stand up and walk out the door.

I sat there and look at the door closing wondering what was that all about. Why would she ask such sudden question. Then my phone started to buzz on the table beside my bed. Taking my phone and looking at it seeing that it's a call from Justin

I slide to answer "Hello"

"Hey" his voice sounds sexy even through the phone.

"What's up?"

"I was wondering if you.....you know"I could tell he sounds pretty nervous

"Know what?" I asked teasingly. It's so funny to tease him most of the time.