Would you stay or leave me?

Chapter 33:Try

[Paige]
I could feel the rate of my heart beat increasing each step I take. Dragging my luggage around with me at the airport. It's been few years now and I think maybe it's time for me to go back. I've done a lot of travelling,visiting interesting places and also learned a thing or two. Maybe it's time to go back and face the things,maybe find Jenna and sort things out.

During this whole year of being at different places,I realise that I've been to cooped up in my own jealousy and horrible past that I forgot to look at things positively. Which made me do unspeakable things that has ruined my friendship with Jenna. Now when I get back there I'll find Jenna and fix things. Help patch things up between Finn and Jenna too.
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After a long agony hour of sitting on the plane and bearing the noisy kids sitting at the row beside me,I've finally arrived.

Dragging my luggage into the taxi and sitting there looking at the transparent window. Seeing people doing their usual routine. I seemed to have missed this place. Such a long time and nothing's really changed,everything seemed to stay the same.

When we passed my old home,I could feel my heart tugging. It's been so long,that house has now become another persons shelter. That house that me and Jenna used to have a small sleep over before she was married and the place we call home. But now it's time for others to build their memories around those walls. I really miss Jenna,I didn't realise a I was crying until I felt one tear trickled down my cheeks. It's been so long and I can't stand the thought of our long friendship lost just like that. I've done this to our friendship and I'm the one to be blamed for this. I've hurt her and I can't seem to do anything that will help heal her.

I could feel the taxi drivers eye constantly looking at me through the rear view mirror. I bet he must be thinking what a weirdo I am to cry at the back of his cab. I couldn't seem to stop thinking about the past sometimes. Sometimes I would wake up with beads of sweat around my face and sometimes even wake up to tears falling down my cheeks.

It's funny that no matter how far you go the past will still come haunting you,reminding you of those horrible things you've done to yourself. Telling us how much of a monster we are.

"Urm.. sorry to disturb you miss. Where are you off to?" The cab driver ask. For the first time I seemed to wonder where am I going. I've thought of coming back here but I didn't know where I'll go when I arrive here. Now that I'm here at the backseat of a taxi thinking where I should go. Then a place came to my mind.

"Just drop me off at Finn's management" the driver nodded his head and then we're back to silence only just the sound of the radio could be heard.
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[Finn]
I was so focused on the file I'm reading that I almost couldn't hear the knock from my door.

"Come in"

The assistants head popped out "Sir,there's this girl who wants to meet you now."

"Tell her that I'm a bit busy today and ask her to come another day" I said dismissing the issue.

"But sir, she is very persistent in meeting you. She said that she wouldn't go anywhere unless she get to meet you. She said her name is Paige" my mind stopped at the mention of that name. She's finally back,why did she look for me?

"Bring her in" she nodded her head and in seconds Paige is standing opposite of me. Nothing's changed,she still looks the same.

"Hi Finn" giving me an awkward smile. I guess she must've been thinking about the past.

"Hello Paige. Why are you here?"

"I know this must be very awkward for you. But I just want to know where is Jenna now?"

"Don't you think it's pretty dumb to find her right now when all those days you've been gone and hiding. Now suddenly out of the blue your back and you want to meet Jenna? Please tell me that I'm hearing right"

"Look who's talking? We both did a mistake back then. You don't have to shove it in my face that I was a wimp that went to hide instead of facing my problems" I rub my temples and sighed. She's right,we both did a mistake back then. I can't just blame her only.

"Look I'm sorry" I said raising both my hands in the air "I don't think you should meet her." she seemed to be taken aback.

"What do you mean I shouldn't go meet her now? I wanna make things right between our friendship"

"Well there's no need to bother about apologise. She's lost her memory"

Her eyes were wide and her mouth hang open "How can this happen?" She was backing away,her steps faltering but she quickly grabbed hold of the chair behind her helping to hold her.

I told her every single thing that happened from the accident until when I met her a few months ago.

"So your telling me that she's lost every bit of her memory and has no idea that you both were married and that you cheated on her?" I shook my head "wow,this is really hard to process" now we're at my office cafeteria. We've decided to talk and get a cup of drink.

"I know"sighing "you know what's the worst part? She's together with her boss now"

She opened her mouth then close it again then open it again "I don't know what to say"

"It's ok. It's not your fault. It's mine,I've ruined everything by cheating and breaking her heart. She gave me a chance and I didn't know how to appreciate it" I said in defeat.

I can't believe I'm talking to the person that I had an affair with few years back. No one would ever imagine that we'll be here talking about our problems. It's just so weird how the universe work.

" So what are you planning to do?" Paige asked

"What do you mean what I'm planning to do?"

"Well,just because she's taken doesn't mean that you can't try to steal her heart once again" sipping on her lime water.

"I don't know" scratching my head "it's maybe for the best" my eyes focusing on my cup of coffee like it's the most fascinating thing in the world. The bitterness of the coffee is like how my life is right now.

"What do you mean it's for the best? Do you know what SHE thinks?" She said emphasising the she word.

I shook my head in defeat.I barely know what she thinks of me whenever we talk and when we met

"So you maybe can meet up with her as a friend going out" she said while quoting the word friend.

"You think it's gonna work?" Scared that this plan might just backfire.

"I'm not sure actually, but I do know that if it's meant to be everything is possible. So instead of sitting there and moping why not go and give it try" I was still indecisive but Paige kept persuading me until I agreed to do it. I will still the heart of the person I've love once again.