Close To You

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TW's:
-None

Clay's POV

As we were sitting down, I grabbed George's hand. 'I really hope you like this, but-,' I started. As I looked down at his hands, I smiled shyly and looked back up to stare him into his eyes. His deep, dark brown eyes looked in my green ones and his lips curled into a smile as he waited for me to start talking again.

'I don't think this makes up for the material things you bought me, but it might make up for your happiness. I really hope it does at least.'

I took a deep breath, softly squeezed his hands and nodded slowly to confirm for myself that I could start talking.

'I'm just going to be straight up. George, I love you. Do you want to be my boyfriend?'

It was quiet for a little and George's mouth stood slightly agape as he stared into my eyes. 'R-really?'

'Yes, I've been in love with you for a while now. I genuinely love you and I wish for you to be my boyfriend. Of course, only if you want to be my boyfriend as well. You don't have to, I just really love you and all the kisses we shared.'

George smiled and sighed. 'I've been waiting for this for so long, but I didn't have the courage to bring it up. I would love to be your boyfriend, I'm in love with you too.'

'That was what I was discussing with Sapnap and why I was crying during the sleepover. I found out I was in love with you and I guess some things happened which I'm not going to repeat,' I giggled.

'Now you've made me curious.'

'Oh gosh, I really shouldn't have brought that up. That was the most uncomfortable and embarrassing day of my entire life.'

George smiled. 'You don't have to tell me if you don't want to, don't worry.'

'I just you know- dreamt about you and something happened,' I giggled as I stretched the "something".

George seemed to understand and laughed loudly. 'You're such a dumbass.'

'I can't help it, shut up. It was just a uh- interesting dream.'

'I don't even want to know what we did together in your dreams.'

'I don't think you want to, indeed,' I giggled as I rolled my eyes. 'But seriously, don't think I'm weird or something. I didn't want to dream about that and I definitely didn't want the end result to happen.'

'It's fine, it's something that you can't do anything about and I don't think it should be something to be ashamed about either. It happens to most of us.'

I smiled, it felt like a stone fell off my shoulders. I had been pretty scared to sleep or to have George figure it out, but now he knew I was a bit more relaxed.

'Even to you?' I giggled.

George rolled his eyes. 'Who knows?' he grinned.

'But you didn't even know you were gay.'

'That just means I'm stupid and too oblivious to realise sexually fantasising about a boy is gay,' George grinned.

I giggled and cuddled up with him. 'Do you want to tell your parents about us?'

'I want to come out as gay to them as soon as possible. I don't want to do it where my siblings are. I know they know it already, but I just want to come out with only them around me. And you.'

'Okay,' I said as I kissed his cheek. 'We are such idiots. We kiss all day and we still didn't ask each other to be boyfriends.'

George giggled. 'I was scared to, I didn't have the courage to bring it up, because I guess I was still scared for you to say that you didn't want me.'

'At least we are together now, I'm glad I brought it up. Now we can kiss without being weird. Are you comfortable with kissing here?'

George looked a bit scared as he looked around him to all the people. 'I'm not sure if I'm honest.'

'Me neither,' I giggled. 'I am a bit scared to kiss you here so let's not do that. I just wanted to know if you really wanted to.'

'I'm too shy for that, I'm not ashamed of you or of myself being gay, but I'd rather not show everyone that I like boys.'

'Same for me,' I said with a smile. 'Is it okay if I also come out to your parents when you do? Or do you not want them to know we are in a relationship?'

'I want to tell them when I come out so you can come out too.'

'When are you planning to do so?'

'Maybe this evening when my siblings went to bed or tomorrow somewhere.'

'Okay,' I answered him. 'Are you okay?'

'I am, I don't find it scary when I'm with you and not close to the fences.'

'I won't leave.'

'But I want you to look though, you have never been here so I want you to see the view.'

'Just a minute,' I said. I stood up and walked to the fences to look at the view. I grabbed my phone to take a picture, but I realised I didn't have enough storage for it. I walked back to George and looked at him.

'Can I maybe have your phone to take a picture? Mine doesn't have enough storage.'

'Of course,' George said as he handed me his phone. I smiled and thanked him as I walked back to the fences to take multiple pictures.

After a while I saw George slowly coming closer to me and I wrapped my arms around him to make him feel safe. 'Can we take a picture together?' he whispered, being very scared.

I turned him around so he wasn't facing the view and held up the camera as I took multiple pictures. I shortly kissed him for the picture, kissed his cheek and just smiled at the camera.

'I can ask my dad to take another one from a distance,' George said with a smile. 'Maybe you can just kiss me and say nothing about it to see if he minds.'

'Okay,' I said with a smile.

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