Close To You

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TW's:
-None

Clay's POV

Later that day, Sapnap, George and I left to go to the beach. After coming out I was a lot more relaxed. I didn't have to hide anything anymore and Sapnap had just laughed about me saying I found girls terribly hot. He immediately noticed it was fake and that I didn't like girls at all. I was glad that I could talk about boys without being scared now.

'Guys?' I muttered awkwardly as I glanced down at my hands in shame. 'I don't have swimming trunks.'

'Do you think you will fit mine? I have two pairs,' Sapnap said. He handed me a green pair of swimming trunks and I went to the bathroom to put them on and came back a little bit later.

'Are they good? They are a bit loose, but they fit,' I said with a smile.

I knew I was pretty thin, it made me a bit insecure sometimes.

'They have these cords,' George pointed. 'You can make it tighter by pulling them out more.'

I nodded and did what he told me too. It worked and both Sapnap and George smiled. 'We should go to the store before our holiday to buy you some swimming trunks as well,' George said.

I nodded. 'I will buy already used ones so I can pay for it myself.'

'You're going to buy new ones with my money,' George said.

I smiled. 'Thank you. Are you both ready to go to the beach?'

'I am ready,' George said as he stood up with a small bag. 'I have sunscreen, you have to put it on so you won't be sunburnt.'

'I'll do that at the beach,' I said.

George nodded and we grabbed all our stuff to go to the beach. We decided to walk since it was just a twenty minute walk if we walked slowly. I walked next to George and had to resist the urge of grabbing his hand. I got a bit nervous around him as I remembered us cuddling again. I felt so happy when we cuddled and for some reason I wished to be cuddling with him again.

I shook my head as I noticed I was completely zoned out whilst thinking about George. He was just my best friend, I shouldn't have those weird thoughts about him.

We walked to the beach in a comfortable silence and Sapnap laid down some towels once we arrived there. I sat down next to George and slowly took off my shirt as I didn't dare to look up at George for some reason. I was afraid to blush when I saw his bare chest.

I knew George took his shirt off next to me and in the corner of my eye, I looked at him. A small smile appeared on my face as I saw his chest. He had a lean figure with still some tiny outlines of his abs. It made me blush and my eyes were literally stuck on his body.

I lifted my head so I could admire his chest even more and looked at every movement he made. He was gorgeous and I couldn't stop looking at him, until- until Sapnap bursted out into laughter.

I quickly looked away and glanced at Sapnap who was literally dying from laughter. 'You guys are both just staring at each other for a good minute now.'

My cheeks heated up and so did George's. I stared down at my hands as I slowly stood up to escape Sapnap's laughter.

'I'm uncomfortable,' I muttered when I was a bit closer to Sapnap. 'This is a bit awkward.'

'I'm sorry, it was just a bit funny.'

I nodded slowly, but didn't have the courage to look up. Sapnap grabbed my shoulder and pulled me a bit closer as George started walking off to the sea.

'Do you like him?' Sapnap asked me with a comforting smile on his face.

'N-no, but don't call me out like that.'

'I'm sorry, I won't. George was staring too so I just thought it was funny. Do you actually not like him?'

I shrugged. 'I'm confused about my own feelings. He's just my best friend, right? I can't think about him in a romantic or sexual way.'

'But do you?'

I shrugged again. 'I don't know, I like how he looks.'

'But you don't stare at me either, so it's something about George.'

'I guess he's attractive,' I said with a sigh. 'I'm so confused, Sap. It's weird to say that about my best friend.'

'I'm not sure if he's your best friend or your crush.'

I looked back up at George who was standing in the water with his feet. He looked up at me and waved for me to come closer. 'It's kind of warm!' he yelled from a far distance.

I noticed my cheeks heated up a bit as soon as I saw his body and I glanced back down at my feet in the sand to not get really flustered. Sapnap grinned and tapped my shoulder.

'It's fine if you like him a bit, I won't tell anyone.'

'Sapnap, am I weird?'

'Why would you be weird?'

'Am I in the wrong for being attracted to my best friend?'

'That's not something you choose and if you would have chosen for that, you would still not be in the wrong. He's a handsome guy.'

I sighed. 'I don't want to fall in love with him. I'm going to feel so hopeless and uncomfortable around him. I have to share a room with him when we are on a holiday too, maybe even a bed.'

'Just calm down, it's fine if you fall in love.'

'But I will have to hide my love for him so I won't mess anything up.'

'Maybe he likes you too.'

'Don't give me false hope, he's not going to like me. I'm not special, I'm too thin and I won't be able to give him anything since I'm poor.'

'I think he cares about you and not about the money you have.'

'I don't know,' I muttered as we started walking to George.

He smiled brightly and I smiled back as I stepped into the water slowly.

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