Close To You

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Clay's POV

I was sitting next to Sapnap when George went downstairs and I bursted into tears again. Nothing happened this night, next to me having a sexual dream about George. I was just really embarrassed about myself and went to the bathroom so I wouldn't burst out in tears next to George.

I wanted these dreams to stop, even though nothing happened, I was still scared to death of something happening. If I would ever confess to George and if he would like me too, I would explain to him why I was crying a lot, but I absolutely didn't want to now.

Sapnap sat in front of me and smiled. 'Clay, it's totally fine. There's no need to worry this much, nothing happened and you only dreamt about him.'

'But I'm so scared for it to happen again. Are you awkward? I'm sorry if this is really weird to you.'

'It's not weird to me, a lot of people have sexual dreams and it's not something you can control. You just like him a lot.'

'But what if it happens again, Sap,' I whispered.

'It won't and even if it will, you can just shower shortly and it's all good.'

I sighed. 'I'm so embarrassed.'

'Dude, stop. It's something really common and everyone is scared to speak about it for some reason. You can't help it, it's something that happens a lot to almost every boy on this earth and we should break the taboo of it being something weird.'

I took a deep breath and nodded slowly. 'I guess you're right, it's not something weird, but I'm still a bit ashamed that it happened. Anyway, I'll go shower and then go downstairs to have breakfast with George.'

Sapnap nodded and I went to the bathroom, taking a short shower. I went downstairs after that and saw George standing in the kitchen. He looked up at me with a smile. 'Hi, Clay! How are you?'

'I'm okay,' I said with a smile, feeling my cheeks heat up as I saw him. 'And you?'

'I'm good as well. Breakfast is almost ready, is Sapnap coming too?'

'He's in the shower, he will be here soon.'

'Nice,' George smiled. 'I'm excited to bake the muffins today, I like baking.'

'Me too,' I said with a smile, sitting down on the couch.

George sat down next to me with three plates and smiled. 'I like your new clothes, you look good.'

I blushed and smiled. 'Thank you, I like how you look.' I noticed I phrased it way differently than I meant to phrase it and cleared my throat awkwardly. 'I mean- your clothes?'

George grinned and didn't comment on it. We sat back, waiting for Sapnap. He came downstairs five minutes later, we had breakfast and chilled for a little after that.

When it was just a bit before lunch, Sapnap stood up to go to the kitchen. 'Want to bake the muffins now? While it's in the oven, we can have lunch.'

'Okay,' I said as I stood up and walked to him.

George stood up too and Sapnap put some stuff on the counter. We just followed the recipe we had and added all the things into a bowl, mixing it after that. I hadn't noticed George teasing me a bit and looked down at my clothes to see it covered in flour.

I laughed. 'What have you done?' I asked George.

'It was an accident,' he yelled with a bright smile on his face.

I giggled and rolled my eyes, sticking my finger in the batter to wipe it off on his nose. George giggled too and did the same to me as I pushed him away softly with a big smile.

'I might have to change my shirt now, idiot,' I grinned as I rolled my eyes at George.

'I'll wash it before we go on the holiday.'

I giggled and walked to the living room to grab a new shirt. Just as I pulled off my shirt, George walked in. He started blushing immediately as he looked at me without my shirt on and I had my face heat up as well.

'Uh- I uh- I thought you would have a shirt on by now.'

I giggled. 'I clearly don't.'

'I can see that,' George said awkwardly.

'You seem to like it a whole lot, seen those red cheeks.'

'Don't call me out like that,' George giggled.

I really wanted to kiss him so badly, I wanted to share a passionate kiss with him just as I dreamt about. I almost couldn't resist myself and walked a bit closer to him, bringing my hand up to his face. He lifted his hand to touch my chest shortly and just as I wanted to lean in, I realised what I was doing.

I snapped back to reality and walked back a little. Both our faces were bright red and I quickly put on my shirt. 'Uh- Sapnap!'

'Y-yeah,' George muttered.

We quickly walked back to the kitchen and Sapnap looked at us with a bright smile on his face. He giggled and I tried to hide my absolutely flustered and red face, but it was way too obvious for him to not see.

Sapnap didn't comment on it, but I was sure he knew that George walked in on me without a shirt since we were both quieter and very flustered.

'I put the muffins in the oven so I'm going to prepare lunch now. You can just go sit down in the living room if you want.'

I nodded slowly, remembering how I almost just kissed George. I kind of regretted that I didn't go further with it. He didn't stop me so maybe he wanted it too and now I threw away my maybe last chance I would ever have to kiss him.

I sighed softly as I wanted to hit myself in the face. If this was my last chance to kiss him, I would actually hate myself for the rest of my life. I was just hoping for another moment like this to come and then I would immediately take it.

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