Wants And Needs ✔︎ [unedited]

Chapter 34

NEEDY

CALIA

"See you after few months, LSB." I said to my friend, Bliss. Nasa airport kami ngayon. Time check, it's 9:25pm.

"Grabe ka naman, Liana! Para namang 'di mo ako makakausap ng matagal na panahon. Para saan pa at may phone at laptop?" aniya. Hinaplos niya ang parehong balikat ko at tinignan ako sa mukha.

"Call me when you have time." I replied. We both smiled to each other.

Bago lumipad ang eroplano ay kinawayan niya ako sa bintana at kumaway naman ako pabalik bilang paalam. Makalipas ang ilang minuto, umandar na ang eroplano.

Mag-isa akong bumyahe papunta sa airport para ihatid si Bliss. Mag-isa din akong umuwi gamit ang kotse ng ate ko. She told me she was too tired to go with me to the airport, I'm not that merciless so I let her rest at home. Besides, I survived driving alone.

Huli kong nakausap si Darwin ay no'ng Martes. Dalawang araw na ang nakalipas. 'Di ko siya magawang kausapin dulot ng abala sa schedules ko. I'm not a big fan of time management kaya nahihirapan akong mag-adjust sa oras.

The last time we talk was Tuesday morning and I was crying on the phone. Sunod-sunod 'yung mga pag-iyak ko. Gabi-gabi na lang akong nagkakaganoon.

Monday evening, I went to Crystal, we talked about many things. Dahil kaibigan ko siya, kailangan kong makipag-usap sa kaniya tungkol sa mga bagay bagay. Ayaw kong maglihim sa kaniya.

That evening, I was supposed to have a dinner date with Adrian but... Crystal called, she said she wanted to meet up with me at her house. We stayed in her room.

- WAN -

"I lost the most precious thing God has given me... I lost Calvin." ani Crystal. Sunod sunod na malalim na paghinga ang kaniyang ginawa. 'Di ko mabatid kung nahihirapan ba siyang huminga o 'di kaya'y pinapakalma niya ang sarili niya.

"What happened?" gulat kong tanong. I really don't have an idea of what was happening.

"We broke up..." she said and grabbed her handkerchief and rubbed it gently through her skin where tears flow just to dry them up. "It was my fault, but why am I hurting like this? Liana, 'di naman ako nagkulang sa kaniya, binigay ko naman ang lahat..."

"Crystal... Knowing Calvin, 'di niya ipaparamdam sa 'yo na nagkulang ka." I said. That's what I think and feel is right to say to her. I don't want her to take all the blame. It wasn't here fault, neither his.

"Pero 'yon ang nararamdaman ko. I feel guilty. I feel regretful on trying to connect with Adrian again. Ang bigat sa pakiramdam kasi naging kaibigan ko siya for how many years tapos sa gano'n lang hahantong ang lahat. I decided to try to be his friend again. I'm just assuming. I'm assuming we'll be back to what we was before." she sat straight beside me and looked at the floor. "Kung 'di ko na pinilit ang sarili ko sa kaniya, 'di kami magkakaganito ni Calvin. It was all my fault in the first place. I want to explain my side to him but I don't think I have the rights, kasi kung 'di na ako nagpakatanga, hinding hindi ako magkakaganito ngayon."

"I saw Calvin yesterday, he wasn't in his right condition, he was numb. I saw his eyes... it was showing no emotions. He can't even feel his brother's touch." pagkukuwento ko. I was outside of Adrian's classroom when that happened. I witnessed what's going on back then. "Crystal, mahal ka ni Calvin..."

"Kung mahal niya ako bakit niya ako sinasaktan ng ganito?" Crystal was confused as I can see from her facial expression and the way she looked at me. She was confused about Calvin's decisions. She didn't know what to think about first.