My Guard for Life

Chapter 18

Pierre was my bodyguard for almost a decade. Kahit nasa gilid lang siya o likod ko, I was used to his presence. When he's not with me, I feel uneasy and paranoid. I grew up hating him and loving him as well. I hated him because he's not like me...I complained a lot before while he didn't, I rebelled while he obeyed. He was patient while I was not. I love him because no matter what, he guards me, he is always there to follow my orders, and he is patient with me.

Tumatak na sa akin na ako ang masusunod sa lahat at hindi siya. So I grew up believing that before I understood him, he should first. I grew up being used to being taken care of by him, that I forgot he needed that too.

I realized that when I took a shower and did my skincare. I was thinking a lot about my teenage days, and I learned that I'm not a grown-up woman yet. I was still the girl who was doing bad things to Pierre, hurting him and all....kung may nagbago lang, 'yon ang mahalin siya sa kabila ng mga kamalian ko sa kanya. While Pierre accepted me, fell for me, and forgave me. That's why I'm different from him.

Nabaling ang tingin ko nang may kumatok sa pinto. I'm still in my bathrobe, although I'm wearing a nightgown na. I opened the door.

I looked at Pierre from top to bottom. His hair is a bit messy. He's wearing a white shirt and white pajamas. This is not a rare situation for both of us. But my room is getting hotter. Akala ko ba hindi pa ako tumatanda? Bakit iba ang nasa isip ko ngayon?

Tuluyan kong binuksan ng pinto at pinapasok siya. He decided that he will sleep in my house tonight. I watched his eyes darted at my bathrobe then looked away. Nakikita ko ang pagtaas at pagbaba ng Adam's apple niya. Hindi ko pinansin na uncomfortable siya. I'm fascinated that he looked attractive in his usual pajamas.

"Bakit ka nandito?" tanong ko.

He turned his head on me and massaged the back of his neck with his left hand. Parang nahihirapan siya sa pagsagot. Why is he here then?

"What do you want to tell me?"

He coughed a bit. "I wanted to sleep here."

Nagulat ako. Nag-init ang pisngi ko. Nakita ko 'yon sa salamin na nasa vanity table. Gosh.

"You-You would what?"

Pierre chuckled. "You don't want to?"

I shook my head eagerly. "No!" I shouted.

I covered my mouth in embarrassment. Pierre cracked a laugh. Mas lalo lang akong nahiya.

"Excited, hmm?"

He loomed closer cutting the distance between us. Pumikit agad ako para salubungin ang halik niya. He didn't. Iminulat ko ang mga mata ko and this time, he kissed me...shortly.

"I'm not going to take advantage of you, Dae. I'll sleep here beside you, that's it."

I pursed my lips. "'Yon din naman ang nasa isip ko," I whispered.

He shook his head in amusement. Pinanood ko ang pag-upo niya sa kama ko. He fits my queen-sized bed. Although it's too girly for a manly guy like him. Still, I like him here.

Inalis ko ang bathrobe ko at dinala 'yon sa gilid ng pinto ng bathroom ko. Nang humarap ako kay Pierre ay nandidilim na ang mata niya. He looked lost in desire between giving me kisses or dragging me to the bed to own me.

I gulped. Lumapit ako sa kanya. I kissed his forehead and murmured, "Goodnight, love."

He groaned. I laughed silently. Inunahan ko na siya sa paghiga sa kama. Kinumutan ko ang sarili ko habang nakayuko na ngayon si Pierre, nagpipigil. I'm not worried about him. He has everything under control. Sa sarili ako nag-aalala dahil gustong-gusto ko siyang gawin ang mga nasa isip ko...niya rin.