Unlovable

Chapter 14

I looked down to our hands which were still connected. I pulled my hand away from his, but I instantly regretted it. My hand felt so empty without his. I waited for Onew to say something, as Jongyhun, key, Minho and Taemin gathered on the other side of the sofa, all crossing their arms and looking at us, waiting for us to say something.

"Uh, who wants breakfast?!" I tried to cheer.  Nobody even flinched. "Okay then" I wanted to shrivel up into myself. 

"So" Key started.

"What were you two up to?" Jongyhun finished for him.

I just looked at Onew. "Good question" I muttered,

"Well we were getting up for breakfast.." I tilted my head at him while I waited for him to continue, " Well, Jessica was-" he cleared his throat "trying to and I wanted her to stay. And last night I had moved her to my bed, because, well because, well I'm not really sure why.." he started to trail off.

I wanted to help but he was telling the truth and I didn't even know what to say. I was panicking inside and trying to scramble around my head to figure out what to say. But I couldn't think of anything. This was bad, this was really bad.

"Okay hyung" Minho was the first to say. He came over and patted him on the shoulder. "you may want to put a shirt on" he chuckled. The rest of us joined in as Onew scurried off into his room, before emerging wearing a blank tank top.

Why that tank top. Why that one. Now I was going to be constantly distracted by his arms. 

"Taemin, can you help me with breakfast?" I heard Key say.

"I'll help!" I perked. I saw a smile spread across Key's face as I dandered over to him. I turned to see Taemin, who was smiling at me too.

"Thank you noona" he half-whispered to me. 

"That's alright" I said scruffing his hair. I froze once I realised what I was doing and all the memories of Taemin in the music video for Danger came flooding to my head. Stop thinking about it. Stop stop stop. I heard Key sigh ever so dramatically before grabbing my wrist and pulling me away.

"Come on noona, Taemin stop  distracting my assistant" he said mockingly before pulling me into the kitchen.  He closed the door, still holding onto my wrist before leading me to a counter and gesturing for me to stand in front of it. He began rumaging through the cupboards.

"Noona  can you get me the eggs out of the fridge and crack them into the bowl for me, please" he said, flashing a grin at me.  I nodded and went over to the fridge which was FULL of food. I reached for the eggs and went back over to the counter to where Key had placed a ceramic bowl. I began cracking them in.

"Omelettes?" I questioned.

"You guessed it" he chanted back. I didn't take my eyes off the bowl while I chuckled. I cracked the eggs, trying to concentrate on what I was doing. But all I could think about was Onew. And being in his arms, and his arms in that vest top. 

"JESSICA" I jumped as I saw a hand being waved in front of my face.

"Sorry, what?" I said quickly.

"Here" Key said giggling at me and handing me a whisk. I bowed and took it from him. "So?" he said, expecting an answer. 

"So what?" I said, my voice cracking in between from nerves.

"You didn't answer my question." He said, expecting me to know what he was talking about.

"Sorry, I didn't hear." I trailed off.

"I thought so" I could hear him chuckle at the end of his sentence. "So, Onew?" he questioned.

"Uh, w-what about him?" I stuttered back.

"What do you mean 'What about him'. I see the way you acted around him." I froze.

"K-Key, it's been one day." 

"Pfffft, honey I don't think that matters."

"Key" I said chuckling. But he continued.

"I can tell that you have a soft spot for him already."

"How?" 

"You get awkward" he said, shrugging it off.

"I am awkward." I replied.

"Well you're not being any where near as awkward as you are with Onew."

"Uh-" 

"You don't have to try and explain to me" He said. "But, ever since I mentioned Onew, you haven't exactly realised that I've been standing making the omelettes" he said holding a plate piled with  omelettes in front of my face and smirking at me. "Come on. Let's go eat." he said smiling and letting me exit the kitchen first.

He said the plate on the table and began putting an omelette on each plate as he called the boys.

"You sit here Jessica" he said smiling and pointing to a seat.

I sat down as Key faced me. Taemin ran in and sat down beside me on my left, smiling to Key.

"Thankyouuu" he chanted.

Minho was next to stride in and sat facing Taemin and thanked us both. Jongyhun entered, looking at me and the empty seat beside me and smirking. He began to pull the chair out.

"No" Key said without looking.

"Wae?" Jongyhun moaned.

"No. Onew is sitting there" he said. Jongyhun sulked and sat down beside Key. Onew was the last one in and I sat up straight, no longer feeling at ease.

"Told you" Key said loud enough for only me to hear.

Onew sat down and we all began eating.

"So Jessica." Jongyhun began " I saw the music on your phone."

Crrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaappppppp!!!

"There are an awful lot of SHINee songs. All of our albums actually. And I must say, your screensaver  also looked very familiar" 

I sat shifting on my seat as I could feel all of their eyes on me.

"She's  a fan?" Taemin whispered. I sank back into my seat and looked to my hands.

"This fell out of your bag too" Jongyhun said. I looked up and my heart actually almost stopped beating. I wish it had. 

He was holding a book. Plain black leather. Boring I know. But it's so it doesn't look interesting enough to open.Because inside is everything I've ever thought about SHINee. It's where I write down anything I can't stop thinking about involving them, where I write down everything I know and love about them, where I write down reviews of their music videos and how perfect I think their music is.

"Is this a diary?" he teased

So he hasn't opened it. Okay good. Thank the lord.

"Can I have it back?" I tried to say it casually, but it came out very desperate. He raised his eyebrows at me.

"Something interesting in here?" he said smirking. I got up and walked towards him.

"Give me it, please" I said.

"I think it would be better if I had a look first-" he said beginning to open the book.