Chasing after Chances [Fangirl & Idol Series #1]

thirty-two

Angel

"Ano po 'yung pinakagusto mo na mayroon si Kyenn?" Napalingon ako kay Devline nang basahin niya 'yon. We're vlogging kasi at ang purpose ng vlog namin today is to answer the questions of other people.

"Devline is a low-key person. He doesn't express his feelings in public but I can feel it. Only I, can feel it. Hindi na kailangan na may saksi sa pagmamahal na binibigay niya, at kung mayroon man, ako 'yon."

Devline smiled and scrolled through his phone again to read another question. While I was waiting for it, I noticed how handsome he is.

"When did you realize that you were already falling for Franzielle? Oh, this is for me," he chuckled before answering the question. "Honestly, when that day happened, I knew that the 'falling stage' won't end there. Each day with her makes me realize that I am still falling."

Umiwas ako ng tingin nang mag-init ang pisngi ko. Kalma, self, kalma. Pinaypayan ko pa ang sarili ko gamit ang mga kamay ko. Lord, help me.

Ako naman ang nagbasa ng replies sa tweet namin at naghanap ng magandang tanong. Sinadya kong piliin 'yung tanong na para kay Devline.

"Kailan mo niligawan si Franzielle at kailan mo siya naging girlfriend?" Dapat alam niya, right? Sisipain ko talaga siya kapag hindi niya 'to nasagot.

He blinked for so many times. Oh, looks like he was caught off guard by that question. Bakit? Hindi niya ba talaga maalala? Maiinis na sana ako sa kaniya nang biglang siyang sumagot.

"Now that I think about it, I haven't asked you to be my girlfriend. No, I've never asked you to be my girlfriend. Kailan kita niligawan? The courtship is not yet over. I'll court you everyday. I think, this is the right time to.."

He pulled out a silver bracelet with my name on it and angel wings on its sides from his pocket, "... ask you to be my girlfriend."

"Kahit naman hindi mo ako tanungin, papayag ako. Marupok kaya ako pagdating sa 'yo!" naiiyak na tugon ko. Tumawa lang si Devline at humalik sa noo ko.

May inilabas pa siyang necklace. It was a silver necklace with an 'angel wings' inspired pendant. Sinuot niya 'yon sa akin. Hinawakan ko kaagad ang pendant, nagagandahan sa design.

"May angel bang makasalanan?" Natawa si Devline sa sinabi ko.

"If you ever end up in hell, I'll guide you and let you go back to your own place."

We were the total opposite of each other. But Devline disregarded that fact. Well, he said that opposites attract each other.

"Xhaiven, baka 'yung mga anak natin ang magkatuluyan," pagbibiro ko. Ang seryoso kasi ni Xhaiven. Napansin kong titig na titig sa akin si Xhaiven kaya sumeryoso ako. "Oh, bakit? Ayaw mo ba?"

"Ang hirap kalimutan ng lahat na nangyari sa atin," he faked a smile. "Gusto kong kalimutan 'yung naramdaman ko para sa 'yo noon pero.. hindi ko magawa. I'm so sorry kung nalito ka dahil sa akin. Kasi naguluhan din ako, Elle."

"Nagustuhan din naman kita.. Hindi nga lang umabot sa puntong mahal na kita. Hindi ko rin alam sa sarili ko, Xhaiven, kung bakit mas pinili ko siya. Ikaw 'yung nandiyan pero siya 'yung nandito," tinuro ko ang kaliwang parte ng dibdib ko kung nasaan ang puso ko.

"Fuck.. Minahal kita. 'Yung kahit na mawasak ulit ako, magpapagamit pa rin ako sa 'yo. If only I was the first one to love you, maybe, things wouldn't be like this. Hindi ako nahihirapan, hindi rin sana nasaktan si Zelena."