Chasing after Chances [Fangirl & Idol Series #1]

twelve

Move on & love again...

One more month and I'll graduate in college. Things are better now. Devlin became more famous after the media found out about the 'dating' issue between Shairah and him.

It was a very short-term relationship, yet it was a long process of moving on.

Zandra and Zylhian are now dating each other, secretly. Zandra is afraid of her mom and dad, that's why they're keeping it private. That was what she told me. Being with Zylhian helped Zandra to get rid of her anxieties.

I was in the middle of reviewing when someone sat in front of me. I am in the library right now but why do I hear some noise?

"You are more attractive when you are studying-"

"Ay pucha!" Nalakasan ko ata iyon kaya napatingin sa akin ang mga tao.

"Shh. Nasa library tayo," ani ng lalaking nasa harapan ko.

"I know right, but walang tayo. You're disturbing me, Xhaiven," inis na bulong ko sa kaniya.

"Let me see. What are you reviewing at?" tanong niya at lumipat ng p'westo. Tumabi siya sa akin kaya mas lalong nag-ingay ang mga tao na agad ding sinaway ng librarian.

Sanay na ang mga taong nakikita kaming magkasama ni Xhaiven. Lalo na't kilala siya bilang isang playboy. Pero hindi pala talaga.

"This one is easy," tinuro niya ang upper portion ng page.

Gabi na nang matapos kami ni Xhaiven. Tinulungan niya talaga akong mag-review. Hindi ko nga inakalang may kaalaman din pala ang loko.

Nalingat lang ako at nakatulog na ang loko. Pinagmasdan ko nalang ang kabuuan ng mukha niya. Hinawi ko ang iilang maliliit na buhok na nakakalat sa noo niya. Napatigil ako nang bigla niyang hawakan ang kamay ko.

"Uh, I w-was just fixing your h-hair uh-"

"Don't touch me again without my permission. I am afraid that I might fall deeper," aniya at tumitig sa mga mata ko.

Parang kinapos ako ng hininga. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang lumapit siya sa akin. Nararamdaman kong magkiskisan ang dulo ng mga ilong namin.

"But I want you, Franzielle. I want you to fall in love with me." I closed my eyes as our lips touched.

It was gentle, soft and slow. I was still savouring the taste of his lips when I heard his chuckle.

"Nabitin ka ata?" he laughed harder.

Dumilat ako at agad siyang sinamaan ng tingin. Hinampas ko pa siya ng libro pero 'di talaga siya tumigil.

"Xhaiven, isa-"

"Dalawa," tumatawang aniya.

"Kapag umabot ako ng tatlo-"

"Ano? Paparusahan mo ako? Like a kiss? That's okay with-"

"Arghhh!" iritadong sigaw ko. Buti nalang at wala si ateng librarian.

Nakita kong pasimpleng tumatawa ang mga bodyguard ni Xhaiven kaya mas lalo akong nairita.

Niligpit ko na ang mga gamit ko at iniwan siya roon. Syempre susunod siya kasi makulit siya.

Naramdaman ko nalang na kunin niya ang bag ko at ang mga dala kong libro. Sinamaan ko pa siya ng tingin pero ngumiti lang siya.

"This is my first time to carry my girlfriend's bag and book-"

"Shut up! I'm not your girlfriend!"

"Not now, not soon, but soonest," aniya at kumindat sa akin.

Nilingon ko siya. Ang cute niya habang dala-dala ang bag at books ko. 'Yung bodyguards niya ay nasa likuran at unahan namin.

Xhaiven was with me throughout my moving on process. Hindi na bago sa akin na pupunta siya rito sa school para guluhin ako o kung ano pa man.

"What's your age nga?" I suddenly asked.

"23, yours?"

"I'm just 20 years old," I said and smiled.

"Hmm, 3 years gap is not bad naman, 'di ba? Meron nga riyang 10 to 15 years pa." Tumango lang ako hanggang sa may maisip ako.

"Why are you thinking of those things all of the sudden?" tanong ko habang kinukuha ang mga gamit ko sa kaniya.

"Just.. nothing," nagkibit-balikat siya bago ako pinagbuksan ng pinto ng sasakyan.

Una akong pumasok bago siya. Sanay na akong hinahatid nila sa bahay. Syempre nasa backseat kami ngayon.

"I'll sleep, traffic naman, e. Just wake me up kapag nakarating na tayo sa bahay," saad ko. Tumango lang siya.

Humilig ako sa balikat niya. Hindi naman talaga ako matutulog pero inaantok lang.

"I see your true colors, shining through."

Pinikit ko ang mga mata ko nang sumabay siya sa kanta.

"I see your true colors that's why-"

"I love you," he whispered those three words on my ear. I pretended to be asleep.

"But I don't have the courage to tell you that I already love you. I want you to fall with me, step by step. I was once a playboy but I had to change for you," his words made my heart beat faster.

Am I ready to fall in love again?

I spent the whole night thinking of what Xhaiven said. Should I tell him that I like him or should I keep him as a friend?

The next day, our finals came. I focused on my exams and set aside my thoughts regarding Xhaiven. I'm aiming to ace the finals again.

It was a bit hard but good thing, I studied enough. Zandra's schedules and mine were conflict to each other.

I was walking while looking down when I bumped into someone.

"Oh my! S-Sorry-" Agad kong sinamaan ng tingin si Xhaiven nang magtagpo ang mga mata namin.

"If there's someone who should say sorry, that is me. I'm walking on the wrong lane." Oo nga, tama siya. Malamang sinadya niya ito.

"Can we eat lunch together?" Nagulat siya sa tanong ko but he instantly nodded.

Habang naglalakad kami palabas ng campus ay nakaakbay sa akin si Xhaiven. Wala na akong pake sa mga tao sa paligid namin.

"Xhaiven, I want to move on and love again-"

"You want what? Love again? Who the hell is that guy? I need to meet him first, Franzielle-" I kissed him in public, darn! It was just a peck but my cheeks burned. He stopped.

"You already met yourself, Xhaiven," I smiled widely at him.

"W-What do you mean? What's with the k-kiss?" namumulang aniya kaya muntikan pa akong matawa. Such a cutie.

"Let's date," I smiled sweetly.

A new start..

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