Chasing after Chances [Fangirl & Idol Series #1]

eighteen

This chapter includes slut-shaming scenes. But I don't tolerate slut-shaming. This is just for the flow of the story. Happy reading!

Step

Confusion consumed me the whole night. I don't really know whom I really like and whom I really love. It's different after all. And now, I'm regretting giving myself to Xhaiven. Zandra was right, I wasn't sure with Xhaiven.

The thought of Devlin chasing after chances, has a big effect on me. Why didn't I listen to him that night? And why did I reopen my heart to Xhaiven?

I wanted to shout and harm myself. I was in the middle of crying when mom entered my room. I instantly wiped my tears off. I stood up and smiled like nothing happened. But my smile faded in an instant when I saw Devlin behind my mom.

"Franzielle anak, Kyenn wants to talk to you," mom faked a smile. She knows what happened in the past. Mom left us inside my room.

I just nodded and diverted my gaze to Devlin. He smiled weakly and his brows furrowed when he noticed something. He walked towards me.

"Did you cry?" he asked, worried about me.

"N-No," I lied.

"Why? Xianna, you don't need to push yourself to give me another chance this fast," he caressed my cheeks before giving me a kiss on my forehead.

"B-Binigay ko na kasi ang s-sarili-"

"Hush. I don't want to hear that again. I c-can't imagine you and him in one b-bed," he looked down with tears rolling down his cheeks.

"Can you still a-accept me?" I asked. He looked up and his brows furrowed.

"Why am I here, huh? It's because I am accepting you again, Xianna," he pulled my arm and hugged me. I closed my eyes when my tears fell. We stayed like that for a while.

When he already left, I fell asleep. The next morning, I received a message from Xhaiven. He told me to meet him outside club-house, at 8 PM.

It was like a normal day for me. I went to school, not minding their judgements. I was standing near the classroom of my first subject when somebody pulled my arm. And as fast as a thunder, I was holding my cheek after receiving a slap.

"You are a slut! No wonder, lahat ng na-link sa 'yo ay idols. Why are you with them, huh? For fame? Bitch, stop the dirty fucking ambitions of yours," mataray na ani ng babaeng sumampal sa 'kin.

"Sila ang lumapit," tinawanan nila ako. "What about Dhavien? He was not an idol yet when we were in a relationship. Devlin? It's not my fault that I caught his attention. And Xhaiven? Do you know that Xhaiven likes me even before? Huwag kang mananampal kung wala ka naman palang alam!" She was angry, she slapped me for the second time.

"Bitch! Hindi ka na nahiya! Abogado pa naman ang kuya mo! Siguro ganiyan ang pamilya-" Bago niya pa matapos ang sasabihin ay may dumapo ng palad sa pisngi niya. When I turned my gaze to the person who slapped her, I saw Zandra.

"E, ikaw? Nakakahiya ka rin! Judge pa naman ang tatay mo. Oh judge, kaya pala judgemental ang anak," nakangising ani Zandra. Ngayon ko lang siya nakitang ganito.

Nakita kong maiyak sa galit ang babae. Hinila ko na si Zandra paalis doon. Pumasok kami sa isang room na walang ibang tao.

"Bes, salamat, ha? Hindi ko alam gagawin ko kung hindi ka dumating. Bes-"