Rewriting it with you ✨ [MED SERIES # 5] COMPLETED

Chapter 44

The first few weeks of doing rounds and clinics were okay. It was tiring but fun. Kinuha ko lang din yung dati kong mga secretary, buti na lang pumayag yung dalawang hospital.

"Hey, there hot momma." Ate Celine said smiling. I just smiled back.

"Hi, ate." I said. Kinuha ko lang yung chart nung pasyente ko. Mas marami akong pasyente na na-admit sa SGH kesa SAH. Pero mas mahaba yung clinic hours ko sa SAH.

"Birthday ni Clarine next week, punta ka. Sa bahay lang naman." She invited. I just nodded.

"Tara sa OB dept. nandun yung tatlo." She suggested. I declined. Lagi pa rin kasi akong inaasar nila ate Yna na para daw kaming naglalaro lang ni Paulo.

The next months of going to therapy, naging mas okay yung pakiramdam ko. I enjoyed what I'm doing, I become appreciative of things and I learned to understand myself more. I learned to put myself first. Iniisip ko yung sarili ko kaysa sa mararamdaman ng iba. Before feeling ko selfish ako if uunahin ko yung sarili ko but now I learned that being selfless is being selfish too, that's being selfish to myself. I deprived myself of opportunities to be more happy and to be contented.

"Sa bellevue na lang yung reception para sa binyag." I told Paulo who's busy reading notes in his laptop. Nakasandal lang sya sa headboard. Dahil sobrang luwag ng dalawang queen size na bed never naman kami nagising na magkayakap, that would have been awkward.

"Okay, send the bill to our accountant. Do you need me to go somewhere with you?" He said then threw me small glances.

"No need. I already bought Nate's attire. I got all your friends as godparents." I uttered.

"How about your friends?" He asked.

"I already included them. They'll be here a day before that." I replied.

"Just tell them to stay here." He offered.

"I already booked them hotel rooms. Mag-stay pala ako kasama nila after sa reception." I informed him. He just nodded. We don't asked too much about each other. We respect each other's privacy. He no longer calls me baby. I told my therapist that, and I was told that could be a good sign that we're slowly turning to be friends. I no longer hate him, at least. I can talk to him without seeing his betrayal.

On the day of christening, all of our families were invited, including our friends. I'm suprised my clan was not forcing me into marrying Paulo. Mom told me they told them firmly that I can decide what's best for me. We already have the best relationship I can ask for. Minsan kinukuha nila si Nate, minsan naman sa bahay ng mommy ni Paulo. At 'pag ganun yung set-up umuuwi ako ng bahay talaga namin. Ayoko namang may ilangan kami ni Paulo lalo isang kwarto lang yung ginagamit namin. He never asked me about my whereabouts 'pag ganun yung set-up.

"So wala na talaga kayo?" Marg asked nung nagpunta ako sa table nila.

"Wala na. And I'm already okay with that. I think nakamove-on na rin naman sya." I said calmly.

"E ikaw?" Lizse asked. I smiled first.

"I think I am going there. I still love him thou, but not the kind of love that wants me to stay with him. I'm okay." I said gently.

"The therapy helped, huh?!" Christian said smiling.

"It did. I no longer hate him and my dad. And I already forgave myself." I uttered. Hero rubbed my back.

"So paano yan, kung over na kayo sa isa't-isa, why you guys are staying together?" Lizse asked.

"For Nate." I simply answered.