Psycho Series #1: Chasing His Obsession

Chapter 3

"Where have you been, Savannah?!" Halos mahilo na ako sa pagyugyog ni mommy sa balikat ko. "You make us worried!"

Hindi na lamang ako umimik dahil sunod na nagsalita si daddy.

"I already told you no college diploma;no boyfriend, right?"

I slowly nod, I can't eye contact with them with their mood, they're really mad at me.

"Wala naman po akong boyfriend, mom and dad." Pagsisiguro ko sa kanila. I smile to them. "Pwede naba ako umakyat sa taas? Masakit kasi katawan ko."

My dad stop me to step away from them. "Bakit bumaba ang grade mo sa isang major mo?"

Marahang nanlaki ang mata. "H-Hindi pa kami nagbibigyan ng grade dad..."

He sudden grab my cheek, I winced due to my swollen cheek. "I asked before hand of course. So, tell me, you're not doing good at your school! What are you doing with your life?!" He shouted like a mad dog

I can feel my tears want to fall but I'm trying to stop them to not. "N-Nagaaral ako ng maayos dad. Maybe they wrongly write the grade of mine."

Marahas niyang binitawan ang pisngi ko kaya't napaatras ako. "Wrongly?! Don't put blame with your stupid brain! I told you to focus with your school, focus on your goal! How can you be a surgeon like us?! How?!"

Nakuyom ko ang kamao ko, nagpipigil na ilabas ang galit ko, magulang ko sila, pinapangaralan lang ako.

"Dad, we've talked about this right? I want to be a nurse not a surgeon." I honestly said to him

Eto ang laging pinagaawayan namin. Ang pagiging surgeon, dapat maging surgeon ako katulad nila. Pinipilit nila sakin ang pangarap na hindi ko namang gusto. Akala ko no'ng una payag na silang mag nurse ako dahil hinayaan nila ako mag STEM pero eto nanaman sila, pagod na ang tenga ko kakarinig ng dapat maging surgeon ako.

Tangina lang. Hindi naman 'yon ang pangarap ko, pangarap nila 'yon.

And for the first time, my dad land his hand on my cheek. Napasinghap ako sa sakit no'n kasabay ng pagsapo ng pisngi. Hindi makapaniwalang napaharap kay daddy. "D-Daddy..."

Nagbabakasaling bumaling kay mommy pero kung tingnan niya ako ay parang ang dumi dumi ko sa kanya, hindi niya man lang ako pinagtanggol kay daddy.

"IF I SAY YOU'LL BE A SURGEON, YOU WILL BE!" He roared at me

That's the que of my tears.

I can't take this no more. For the first time, I turned my back to them and walked away from them.

Not all parents are good as you think, my parents aren't good and I'm tired of it.

...

My beautiful room isn't now, I wrecked everything. I let my anger out for a moment and this is the consiquence for letting my anger out.

My grades are fucking good, but me? I don't think so.

Am I okay? My anger issue started when I was highschool but it's not like today, it's not severe but now...I can't control my anger and just wreck, letting myself to say foul words to others, self harming, it's my everyday life now.

I cried silently, like I used to do. I let my tears fell on my cheeks continously.

I laughed as I wipped my tears. "Aren't you tired of falling?" I asked my tears even I know tears won't answer me.

I stilled for a moment when I heard something outside my veranda, like someone throwing something in the glass door. Nakaharang ang kurtina doon kaya hindi ko makita kung ano 'yon dahil sa pagiging kuryoso tumayo ako sa pagkakaupo sa kama at nilapitan ang veranda.