Psycho Series #1: Chasing His Obsession

Chapter 29

Our days isn't that happy anymore due to God killing himself.

I get easily attached to anyone, I make friends with them easily. So, this is me hurting big time loosing a friend of mine.

Is that hard to live to you kill yourself?

Those smiles and laughs of God are too clear for me, those conversation with him is only memories with him.

But, I'm worried for Haru. Limang araw na din ang nakalipas ng mawala sa'min si God at si Haru ang pinakanaapektuhan. Hindi na 'to kumakain, kung kakain man pilitan pa. Nagkukulong sa kwarto.

I want to comfort Haru but Gabrielle can do that, napapadalas na din ang punta ni Gabrielle sa bahay para kay Haru. He take care of Haru, he sincerely caring to Haru that's why I'm thankful he's doing his best for him.

Ang isang pang nagpapabigat ng pakiramdam ko ay ang nalaman ko mula kay Ally limang araw na din ang nakalipas, hindi man niya nasagot ang huling tinanong ko alam ko na kung saan mapupunta 'yon.

May alam siya sa nangyari sa'kin o siya ang may pakana ng nangyari sa'kin.

"Sav....are you crying again?"

Nagmamadaling pinahid ang luha at nagbalik tingin sa notebook, nagkunwaring may binabasa. "I'm not." I quickly answered

He seems sleepy but he still stood up on Sofa and get over on bed. Hindi na 'to nagpaalam at hinila ako papunta sa bisig niya at ako naman ay bumigay na, lumabas ang hikbing pinipigilan ko dahil nga natutulog pa siya kanina.

He combed my hair gently. "Napapadalas ang pagiyak mo, is it still Ally and God?"

Siniksik ko ang ulo ko sa kanyang leeg at mas hinigpitan ang yakap sa kanya. "I can't stop thinking of it."

He heavy sighed while combing my hair. "I don't like it when you're crying, tell me what to do just to stop those tears keep flowing."

I can't help myself to smile while crying. Simula no'ng araw na 'yon, hindi naalis sa tabi ko si Lawson. He's doing his best to make me smile and not cry. I'm thankful that I have him by my side on these bad days.

"Tell me Lawson," nakatulala ako sa harapan ng kama. "Masama ba akong tao?"

"You're not, you're such a good girl." Mabilis na sagot nito

I smile sadly. "Then, why is it happened to me?"

A short silence shattered in the room, between us.

"I...I just want to be love..." Here's my tears again

Humarap ito sa'kin at pinakatitigan ako sa mga mata, napapikit ako nang marahan niyang tinuyo ang luha sa aking pisngi.

"You're love, you really do, Savannah..." I can sense his sincerety on him. He gently caressed my cheeks and my hair. "I can prove that to you..."

Doon ako napadilat kaya muling nagtagpo ang aming mata. "You'll do that for me?"

Walang pagaalinlangan itong tumango. "You deserve more than that."

I pouted when I feel my tears want to fell again. His words making my heart melt and making me fall over and over for him.

...

Hindi kami nakapasok ni Lawson dahil sinugod namin sa ospital si Haru, puro maliliit na hiwa ang kanyang pulsuhan at duguan. Buti nalang talaga hindi nawala sa tabi ni Haru si Gabrielle, kahit pa pinagtatabuyan na siya hindi siya nagpadala do'n.

I felt sad for Haru, he is hurt big time.

He is unconsious lying on hospital's bed, his pulse was treated. Buti na lamang nasugod namin siya ng maaga sa ospital kasi kung hindi, baka pati siya iwan na kami ng tuluyan katulad ng ginawa ni God.